Seven Wonders

Well. Sam and I broke up last night at 12:30 in the morning.

I broke up with him mainly because he has been unsure about our relationship lately and he isn't even sure if he loves me anymore.

I don't know whats gonna happen. I am very confused. I still love him, obviously. I just would really like to know that he loves me too... A really big part of me is hoping that he'll realize what he's missing without me and realize that he really does love and want to be with me. But I don't know...

I am going home this weekend because I don't want to be here. I've felt alone here all year and it will only be ten times worse when I don't even have a boyfriend to talk to.

I wanted you guys to know whats going on with me, but please don't go spreading this around.

I wish you were all here. You are still all the best friends I've ever had and being without you all when I'm hurting really sucks.

Hi my lovelies!!!!! I haven't talked to you all in so long, and I feel terrible about it. So, I will try to catch you up on my life as best I can.

I am graduating next year first of all :) yay! That being said, this semester is proving to be very taxing. I currently have multiple tests every week, a 25 page research paper, and I am student teaching at Middleton Elementary in Woodbury. Don't get me wrong, I love being busy, I just feel so "professional" to say the least.

My weight gained this summer has been reluctant to leave, but is slowly coming off. I now have countless meds to take to get my system back to normal, and I have had many doctor's appointments as well. I have been gluten free and dairy free for a few months now. I also am on prescription strength vitamin D, and I am anemic as well. With all the craziness, I just try not to think or talk about it as much as I can, although I don't think my mother has the same mentality. Of course, she's only looking out for my best interests.

I am now in the NSSLHA organization and sorority so I have meetings almost every day of the week, do service projects on weekdays and weekends, and other than that I am usually in the library. My friends got pretty upset that I had no time for them (which was true) and I have been trying to balance everything as best I can.

Grace is my roommate and one of my best friends. She's been having a really tough time this year and I never thought I would be dealing with the piercings, losing her virginity, drinking all the time, crying fits, anorexia, and depression. I just want her to get well and I am trying to help in any way I can. Some of my friends and I suggested counseling so she's going every Friday now. Another one of my friends is having anxiety problems and is dealing with being put on meds. There's some other friend drama too, and I am trying to be there for support, but it's hard sometimes to know exactly what to say. I just try to be a shoulder to cry on and someone to listen to.

If you've crept my facebook, you would see I am dating someone. His name is Dan. He was the boy right after Corbin. Turns out we never stopped liking each other since last year. Things have been going amazing, and we've been dating for about a month and a half. I love his family too, and his new puppy Roxy. Dan is really sweet and I sometimes I catch myself getting too head over heels for him. I am just glad it's going well. And don't worry, my v-card will be in tact a longgggg time ;).

So that's the highlights. I feel so bad I am not updated on all your lives. I hope to see the majority of you on Thanksgiving so we can all catch up!!!!!

Hi friends!

It's been a while so I thought I should update you on my life. Or at least the important things in my life right now. And I have to warn you, the majority of it isn't good news...

I went out with Corey (the usher from my cousin's wedding) once and it was just weird. Like, he's so much older than me and we're at such different stages of our lives. And I just didn't feel any kind of a click. This happened the same week I last blogged. Since then, he's been texting me and keeps asking to go to dinner or something again. But a) my life is so busy right now I really don't have time to try and make something work when b) I really don't want to. So he's not really getting the hint. : /

Lately, I've had little to no motivation to do anything besides sit on my couch and internet surf, watch tv, or read HP. Which is taking it's toll on my schoolwork and CA work. But I feel like it's somewhat justified with how distracted I've been because of the next few things...

Okay. I really don't know how to go about this. There are two really... not fun things I feel like I need to fill you in on especially since some of you know parts of it and others don't know anything. But I don't know in what order I should tell you. Because they both kind of happened at the same time.

Basically, last week was a really bad week. As in, probably the worst week of my life. Okay. I'm just gonna tell you chronologically.

Sunday Oct 24.
One of my good friends, lets call her Mary, tells me that the night before, she had sex with this guy, let's call him Allen, I had started kind of crushing on. Only kind of cause he's actually the floor president of G1 so I was like, hm, probably not okay. But anyway, she tells me this and I'm just shocked. Because they had only met once before, she knew about this semi crush, AND she lost her virginity to this guy. Only later, I found out that she was DRUNK drunk and he was high. So no, this was not consentual.

Monday Oct 25.
Mary tells me more details. This happeed off campus, she hardly remembers anything, and there were complications. As in, she had to go to the ER because she was bleeding so much and so heavily for almost 24 hours afterward. She also said she was thinking about reporting it because her roommate told her it was technically rape (which is correct, by the way) but she didn't want to make a big deal out of it because "drunken sex happens all the time on the weekends" (true but that doesn't mean it's okay for sexual assault). Mondays are my busiest days so I didn't even get back to my room until after 9pm and then I knew she was feeling shitty so I went over to her room to talk to her and she told me she was not reporting it and asked me not to either (seeing as I'm a CA). I didn't tell her I would or wouldn't report it.

Tuesday Oct 26.
I have my 1:1 with my Hall Director, Joel. He asks me how my weekend was and I told him about Mary and Allen. Immideately he goes into Hall Director mode and takes out about 4 big binders of info and I tell him everything I know quite reluctantly. At this point I'm feeling like complete shit because not only am I "telling on her" but also I have to think about it some more. I'm still shocked and just... it was the weirdest, worst thing of my life. I was shaking and everything and this didn't even happen to me! Anyway, it breaks Joel's heart when I tell him it was Allen because he had been doing such ad awesome job as floor president and we were all sure he'd be an amazing CA eventually. And then our 45minutes were over and I had to work the front desk. But we weren't done talking about it. I had to meet with my area director (one step above hall director), Jamie and Joel together to talk about the incident and what I knew. They told me I should have called the Hall Director on duty as soon as I found out about it Sunday night but that's about it as far as telling me what I should have done. Both thanked me for reporting it and told me I did the right thing. Jamie also asked me to talk to Mary that night telling her she needed to make an appointment to meet with him asap about it. So I did. She cried. She was pissed. She didn't want anyone else to know about it and she didn't want anything to happen. But I explained to her she had control over the situation and they just needed to know about everything and whatever. At the end of our talk she said, "I'm really pissed off at you and just really upset right now. But I know someday I might be thankful. But right now I'm really really not." Which is what I was expecting.

Wednesday Oct 27.
Joel suggested I go to the counceling center to talk over everything that had happened the past few days because it was definitely mentally taxing on me. And I jumped at this chance because I had been considering going for a while but I was just too nervous. For the past year or more I guess, I've been monitoring myself and about 3 weeks ago I went online and took all the online tests on the counceling center's website and all of them came back with the same result and the councelor confirmed that I have clinical depression. I was on the boarder of severe but since I'm not suicidal, it didn't push that limit. Anyway, my councelor, Miranda, she told me to go to health services and find out if I qualify for medications. And she scheduled another meeting for me the next week.

Thursday Oct 28.
With everything going on, this was a "normal" day.

Friday Oct 29.
We didn't have classes cause it was considered our "fall break." So Joel and I rescheduled our 1:1 to talk about actual 1:1 things rather than just Mary's stuff. We had a really really good conversation about where my social/personal life ends and my CA life begins and where the line is etc. And we decided that there is no line. It isn't black and white but a WHOLE lot of gray. And we talked about how CAs live in a fishbowl. And being a CA doesn't end when we step outside the doors. We're always a CA. Whether that's in the dorms, in class, around town, or even at home. So this conversation is great, right? And then at the very end, Joel decides to tell me I need to have a meeting with Jamie again to "discuss my future employment." Why? Cause I didn't report the Mary situation properly. As in when and to who. So basically, at this meeting [which is happening next Thursday (not tomorrow)] I'm going to get a warning, be put on probation, or get fired. Joel said all these nice things and he said that if it were up to him, I wouldn't be fired but he doesn't make that decision. He said he'd be fighting for me and he said Jamie would be too. But idk what the deal is. So that night, I think I had a total of 5 breakdowns. It was a bad day. I have a 1 in 3 chance of being fired. Which is not okay. I need this job. It makes me happy. So Mary was pissed at me and wasn't talking to me and on top of that, because of her situation, I could lose my job. Awesome. Luckily, my CA friends Kristin and Alex were there for me and let me cry and stuff. Which was weird for me cause I don't cry. Epecially in front of people. So... yeah.

Sat and Sun (including Halloween) therefore sucked. I couldn't get that out of my head.

Monday Nov 1.
I had my appointment at health services and I had 8/9 of something so I def qualified for depression meds. So I am no officially on Prozac. But I guess it doesn't start working for 2-3 weeks. That night, Mary asked me if we could talk again. And we went to dinner in the caf and just talked things through and we're good now. Which is great. She was pissed when she found out my job is on the line and wants to help but there's nothing she can do at this point.

So now I'm just waiting for next Thursdy to find out what the status of my employment is. And no, I'm not okay about it.
I also have yet to tell my parents about my depression stuff... And I really wish I didn't have to. Cause I'm sure they're going to be disappointed that I'm not who they thought I was. But the doctors appointment was put on their insurance. The pharmacy here didn't accept our pharmacy card though so I just paid for that myself. So maybe they won't have to know? I don't know how that works. I'm thinking I'll just leave it alone unless they ask about it. They know I went to the doctor for something cause I asked them something about our insurance but they don't know why.

Anyway. Those are the things going on in my life right now. I hope everyone is doing well and we should all really get together over Thanksgiving if we're all home, yes?

I don't really have anything that important but I feel like I've told a few of you a few things and I don't want anyone to be out of the loop haha :] but a lot of this will be review. there will be a test to follow.

Ok, ok. I'm finally blogging. Sooooo I have a house for next year, pictures will come soon! It's beautiful, old but it'll be soooo cute and i'm living with Mal and my friend Katie and Kayla and my other friend David are living in our upstairs "apartment." And not a whole lot else has happened, I have pretty much been buried alive in homework and classes go everyday from 8-5 or 6 for me which is a struggle...I like my photo and design class much better than last semester though. Also Garrett came to visit this weekend? I know, right. So weird. Eric and I also went to dinner at Red Lobster and it was soooo good :] I'm coming home next weekend but a lot of my time will probably be occupied with Rusty. But if anyone's around I could probably (hopefully) find time for some coffee or something. Otherwise I won't be home again until Thanksgiving. It's too hard to come home when all of my work has to be done on campus computers :/  Love you allllllll <3

Lizzie's Life updated as of 10/04/10:

-Has car. Leased a brand new car for less than my parents are paying for the red one. I am now driving my baby (red car) down in Kato while my parents are driving the nice brand new Corolla in Lakeville.
-Said car is currently parked in the only permit space left which so happens to be half way to Lakeville.
-Reading at cousins wedding two weekends ago was success.
-An usher from said wedding (in Kansas, even) has now been communicating with Lizzie and has asked her out to dinner this week.
-Said usher apparently lives 20 miles away from Mankato.
-It is a small world after all.
-Perfect face has begun flirting with Lizzie. Lizzie=very happy girl.
-Homework/studies/school= not importnant in comparison to CAing and social life.
-Previous statement needs to change.
-I LOVE BEING A CA. I have so many more friends this year and I'm just happier. I'm not dreading going to bed and waking up in Mankato anymore.
-I visited Sarah and Brianna at the U over the weekend. I decided I hate big schools and don't even know why I ever, EVER wanted to go there in the first place.
-Less time for life means sleep, laundry, and hygiene are not my top priority... but I think my hair is healthier because of it! (Which is kind of gross if you think about it. But it's kind of not.)
-Feeling way more detached from home and Lakeville and Lakeville people than last year. But I still love going home. I just really don't need to as often anymore. (Which is good.) Except my mother is having a hard time being okay with that.
-IT'S HOMECOMING THIS WEEK!!! Which means being a CA I'll have little-no time celebrating and a lot of time preventing car-burning riots (or just riots of any kind).

Oh,
-And I MISS YOU GIRLS LIKE CRAZY!! Will you all be home for winter break? We can have a Winter Wonders Night? Cause pretty sure I haven't seen some of you for literally months.

I hope everything is going well!

Love you!

"Kites rise highest against the wind- not with it."
-Sir Winston Churchill

So I just felt like blogging. For several reasons. I had a really really good weekend. We didn't really do anything especially interesting. It was just fun. I ate a lot of good food. Punch Pizza, Chipotle, homemade pesto pasta, Wilde Roast Cafe, Panera. Yum yum yum yum yum. All good. Sam and I mostly stayed in cuz we, uh, just really missed each other. But we also went back and hung out at my house a little bit and went on a walk and found Steve!!!!! He's a caterpillar. He's fat and green and awesome. He was supposed to come back to Decorah with me but he got left behind in Minneapolis. Woopsies. We also hung out with Coco and Maddy which was really awesome. Usually when I saw Sam last year it was just me and him all the time, but seeing friends TOO made it even better. And yeah. Basically I decided that I love Minneapolis.

Which led to a problem. Because now I feel like I want to transfer. I am not making any decisions anytime soon, I don't even know if I will have to make decisions, I just am thinking about making decisions sometime in the future. It just kinda sucks because this weekend I realized just how average life in Decorah is. Like, it is way better than last year and I am not depressed and I'm not unhappy here. I'm just not happy here. You know what I mean? I just kinda....am okay? Not unhappy. Just not especially happy. It's like, I really didn't do anything special this weekend. I did much more interesting things here at Luther last weekend. But I was just so much happier this weekend. And I swear its not just because of Sam. I really liked being able to go hang out with my family for a little bit and being able to see Corinne and Maddy. And I liked having way more dining options. Idk. I just think that maybe no matter how many people I talk to or hang out with here and how much I avoid being depressed here it'll still never feel like home. Cuz home is where the heart is. And I think my heart is in Minneapolis and Lakeville and St Paul and Eau Claire and Boston and Mankato and River Falls. Everywhere you guys and Sam and my family are. Because no matter how many friends I have here I still don't have good friends. The best friend I have here is Jess. And she's awesome, but she's not you guys. She doesn't know me like you guys do. So yeah. This is just what I've been thinking about since this weekend. I'm still a lot happier than last year. I am doing fine here. I just wonder if I'd do better elsewhere.

Here's some more thoughts

Reasons for transferring to the U: Closer to home, closer to Sam(really close), can hang out with Maddy, more food options, most likely less expensive, Minneapolis is really cool and pretty, I'm pretty sure they will have whatever I decide to major in there, easier for other friends to visit since it is close to Lakeville, I am tired of being in a dorm and I want an appt, more options for night life, no matter what I will be closer to the people I love most

Reasons for staying here: Easier, I'm used to it, Decorah is pretty, small towns are cute, have a job here, Jess Jess, not as much crime as Minneapolis (haha)

Reasons not to transfer: It's a lot of work, I'd have to make a lot of new friends even though I already know a few people there, I wouldn't have a job, it would suck if Sam and I broke up (although I feel really good about our relationship lately :)), don't know who I'd live with, what if I found out I really like the city when I'm visiting but then I hate going to class in a big city, I don't really want to raise my risk of being shot or raped

Reasons not to stay: tired of the dining options, tired of the living options, tired of the night life options, Jess is considering transferring if Luther turns out to be too expensive, I miss Sam, I don't like driving 2 hours to get home, I miss having a group of good friends nearby, I don't have a good group of friends here ( I just have like 3 or 4 individual friends that I'm not super close to), there is nothing keeping me here, it still doesn't feel like home.

So yeah. These are all of the thoughts I've been thinking. I realize that no matter what I need to give Luther a little more time. Just because I'm not really happy here now doesn't mean I won't be in a few weeks. I am just trying to figure out how much time I should give it? I dunno. You guys should let me know what you think.

Hey girls!

Happy Thursday! I hope everyone's first few days or week have been going well! I'm just on my third week of classes and fifth week here. No big deal.

So last Thursday, like Ali, I went to my first football game here. And again, like Ali, it was so much more fun than I thought it would be! But that could be because I was there with Kellen and Kristin and my floor who were all decked out. BUT it was raining. A lot. And it was cold. And it was painful. So during halftime we made a run for it cause it was ridiculous. But a good memory nonetheless. : ) Later that night Kellen and I went on a Target run and then went over to Nick's apartment for a while.

I was home last weekend which I needed just to not have to worry about CA stuff and other people. Friday night my family and I went to the Twins game which was awesome- but freezing. And I was so tired I was literterally fighting to keep my eyes open.
Saturday was spent shopping for my cousins wedding in two weeks. At the end of the day, I ended up with two beautiful dresses I love after much, much stress. It reminded me why I love not living at home anymore.
Sunday we went down to my grandma's house and I was pretty bored out of my mind.
Monday we did some more shopping to find shoes because apparently my shoes wouldn't work.
(Oh, the wedding I'm going to is my cousins. I haven't seen her since my grandma died in 9th grade. But I'm gonna be one of the readers in her wedding, which is cool I guess. Also, she's a princess. Like, everything has to be perfect and princess-y and whatever.) And then I came back... and it was nuts. Most people had gone home for the long weekend but there was still so much stuff I had to take care of. So I got little sleep.

Tuesday... I don't remember. Creeper Colton is being a big creep. I don't like it.
Wednesday was yesterday. It was another long day cause of CA stuff.
And now it's Thursday and I'm working the desk and I just got a bunch of packages to sort through...
Talk to you soon!

Send me things! : )

Lovee,
Lizzie

To clarify, we are only blogging when there is something that we'd like to say to everyone. It is not necessary to blog once a week, or have designated days. That way no one feels pressured to blog. Hope you all are having a great time at school!

Hey everybody. So I know I said I'd be blogging on Wednesdays but that didn't really happen this week. So I thought maybe I should let you all know how my life is going.

I've been in Decorah for a week now and class started last Wednesday. I was really worried about this year since last year ending up being really crappy for me. I think mostly I was worried that I was gonna be left out and not have friends and whatnot. Well, fortunately that is not the case at all! I've been hanging out with a bunch of different people and lunch today was the first time I couldn't find someone to eat with me. (That might've had to do with the fact that it was past noon by the time I was even up and ready) I've been hanging out with Jess a lot which is good because she makes me feel less homesick. That's also good because she's the person here who I can get most of my weirdness out with haha. Anyways, its been nice because even though I've seen her a lot we both have also spent a lot of time with people our age. I also have been hanging out with my friend Amy a lot. I was worried that I was hardly gonna see her this year cuz she's an RA across campus, but we've managed to have a lot of lunch and dinner dates and she has become a really good friend to have. I was also worried about how my relationship with Hannah and Ariel would be, but I've visited with them a lot. Well, mostly Ariel. Haha. My roommate this year is probably the best kind of roommate to have. She is gone a lot because of cheer and class and work, but when we are together we get along But anyways, its nice to be able to see them every once in awhile but not be living with them. really well. It's just really nice because we both have our own lives, but we also can have fun together.

So the whole friend thing is going well so far. I've also been trying to get out of my room as much as possible and I haven't turned down any invitations to anything! So far this year I've tubed down the river, walked to the Whippy Dip, had many movie parties in Jess's room, went to the Sugarbowl, went to Mabe's and gone to my first football game! (We lost to St Olaf :/) I was gonna go to Roscoe's last night, but I ended up staying in because I had a headache.

The one crappy thing so far is that I didn't get into the choir I wanted. In fact, I got into the choir that I DIDN'T want to get in. That was really frustrating for me and I was pretty upset about it yesterday. I knew I probably wouldn't get called back for Nordic cuz that is the top choir here and mostly upperclassmen so I was fine about that. My other options were Cathedral (an all sophomore mixed choir) and Cantorei (a mixed ages all women choir). I felt really good about my audition so I was pretty positive I had gotten in Cathedral. But nope, I got into Cantorei. It is the worst choir of the 6 here. That was a slap in the face and I was really confused about that. But I am trying to get over it and have a positive attitude about it. Not that I think I'm an amazing singer or anything, but I thought I was somewhere in the middle.... So yeah, that sucks.

Anyways. That is really all I have to share. I will be coming home next weekend to stay at the U with Sam. So that'll be fun :) Maddy if you hear of any parties there next weekend, let me know and maybe we can meet you there haha.

Hope you all have/have had a great first week of class!

Hey pretty ladies :] I thought I'd write because a lot has happened since I've seen most of you.

Okay girls. SO much has happened.
Classes started Monday. I'm already stressing about it. Mostly just my philosophy class cause it's a writing intensive and I can tell it'll be stressful. My prof is the stereotypical crazy college professor. Literally. Crazy long wild gray hair, huge glasses, plus he has a twitch thing. Idk. Haha

CA stuff is AWESOME. I *LOVE* my floor! I can't even explain it very well. But they're all friends and so nice we've had no issues on my floor yet minus one thing on move in. The only thing is... it's taking up SO much of my time. I am honestly worried I won't get my schoolwork done. I need to prioritize better: School, CA, social life. Right now it's CA, social life, school. Oops...

But really, I'm in SUCH a better state than I was last year. I hated last year. I was sad every day. Even though I didn't say it or seem like it, I was. I absolutely hated it. Even second semester was bad. I mean, it was better, but it was still bad. This year, I'm happy every day. I mean, I'm stressed and uber busy everyday without a break but I'm happy. My mom told me it's cause I strive when I'm busy. Which is probably true but, I mean, I am CRAZY busy. Like, worse than high shool if that's possible.

With that said, I am legitly worried I won't get all the school work done like I need to. And my grades are going to suffer. It's only the first week but I know if it continues like this, I'll be going nowhere good fast. I need more discipline. Just let my social life suffer, that's fine.

Okay. Boy.
I went on a lunch date yesterday. And he wants to do something tonight. I think. Watch a movie and cuddle and kiss. (Yes, he has said this to me.) I just find him kind of... weird. Not my type. Like, he is VERY forward and likes to take things really fast and I just don't feel comfortable with it. I told him I need to learn more about him and all he says is "I wish you would just give me a chance. Just one chance." And I'm like, HI, WHAT AM I GIVING YOU RIGHT NOW, A FISH?! I don't know. I don't want to rush into this. I mean, WE MET YESTERDAY. He just doesn't get it. I'll let you know if more happens. I don't think it'll end up working out. I could be wrong... but I doubt it.

I LOVE LIVING IN MCELROY!! I hated Gage. HATED it.

Kellen and I went to Coldstone yesterday just to get away from campus (plus it was SO nice out yesterday!) And we figured out how common our boy stories are/were so while Kya is off with her boyfriend we decided we'll just go out and flirt up a storm... somewhere. Haha there's nowhere to really go to meet people. Oh well.
Me and Calista have a class together!! Which is awesome. Health 240: Drug Education. But the kids in our class are freaking RUDE assholes. Just cause our prof is from India and isn't always the easiest to understand they think they can undermind him and whatever. It pisses me off. So Calista and I talked to him after class saying they were being rude and we appreciated his time. Sucking up a little, but that's okay. Haha
Today I went to lunch with Nick to catch up since we didn't see each other all summer even though we both live in Lakeville. Fail. Haha
And I see Calista/Mike and Brenna in the caf ALL the time. Haha it's okay, it's fun to creep. ; )

Perfect face/farm boy Collin still has a perfect face. I saw him riding his motorcycle yesterday and I just swooned. I'm pathetic. BUT HE'S SO ATTRACTIVE!!

Hope you have/had a great move in!!!

Miss you so much!!

Lots of love,
Lizzie

"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within." -Elizabeth Kubler Ross

"Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an act but a habit." -Aristotle

I'm so excited to be blogging again!
The days I can blog are Tuesdays or Thursdays work best seeing as I don't have classes and those are the days with least CA responsibilities.

BUT I had to write to inform you of... BOY!!

There is a new boy in Lizzie's life. For now, we are friends with lots of flirting. Oh lord is he a cute one and he's a CA too. He's in the hall next to mine and his name is Collin. Which is SUPER weird by the way. Not sure if he's single or not yet. But I will soon find out.

This whole crush thing isn't terribly new but I didn't want to get too excited about it yet. And now I just needed to tell somebody. Somebody= ALL OF YOU! : )

CA training is going great! I'm meeting so many new friends and it's starting off SO well! The days are extremely long (12 hours at least) but it's worth it. Freshmen move in Thursday so I'm getting ready for that with door decs, bulletin boards, bathroom newsletters, etc. I'm still a little nervous for having guys live on my floor but not as much anymore. I'm just excited for people to actually live on the floor with me! It's really creepy living on a floor by yourself. Especially with all the doors to the rooms open and the, being empty and stuff. Just, weird... ESPECIALLY at night. -Shudders-

Anyway that was just a quick recap but I hope to hear from you all soon! Love and miss you!

<3 Lizzie

Me. My bad.

Let's see... I don't even remember what I've done.

I took pictures at Collin's prom stuff last Saturday. I had Sarah and Chris over for a while where we tried to roast marshmellows without a fire and gave up and put them in the microwave. We played tetris for a long time. Then Brian came over for a bit and we played bananagrams.

Sunday... I'm drawing a blank. Oh I went to church that night when my dad got home from his fishing trip and then we stopped by DQ to visit Trina and Emily.

Monday... Collin had a baseball that I went to. Then I had bonfire round 2 since round 1 failed. It was a good turn out. Erik, Sarah, Chris, Marshall, Collin McF, Emily Delay, Brian, Megan, Nick, and Trina. Yep. I ended the night with no smores supplies and a greatly shortened fire stick. (Which the boys of my house were not happy about... oops.)

Tuesday me and Erik went up to St Paul to see Maddy we went to Grand Ole (Old?) Creamery for the first time. Which was grand. And we walked around to some stores and stuff. I want to go back. When I got home I picked up Sarah and we went to the highschool to watch our brothers. Collin had a baseball game and Collin/Marshall had tennis. So we both watched a little of both and then stayed at the appropriate place for the ends of them. Collin's baseball game was fantastic. A HUGE come from behind win. They wew down 8-1 in the FIRST INNING. The final score was 15-12 I think. It was epic! That night I went to Erik's to watch Lost. That was the end of Tuesday.

Wednesday Collin had his last school ball game at home against South. We won, obviously, I mean, it was against south. And then Some fans/parents/families went to Teresa's. Which was good, as always. Then we decided to go to Babe's for Bingo. I love Bingo. But there were 5 of us playing. And none of us won. We wasted $108 between all of us with noone winning. FAIL. That night... just ugh.

Yesterday (Thursday) I went to some beach in Prior Lake with Sarah and Calista for a few hours. It was nice and fun. And I even got some color!!! Which is fantastic for me. Then I came home and immediately had to pick up Collin from school. Oh well. And I watched Lost again with my parents cause it was THAT good. Then I helped my dad plant some pumpkins and do some random other stuff outside. Then I played Sims3 and completey lost track of time. Watched the season finale of Grey's and just about DIED. I was freaking out the whole time. My parents got a kick out of watching me react but... OH MY!!! I loved it. Then I went to Bee's with Sarah and Erik for half price apps. After that we chilled in Sarah's basement and learned a new drinking game without drinking that was fun just to play. Haha.

Today... I woke up. And changed my twitter background. And wrote this.
My life is so fascinating.

ANYWAY You're all home!!! Or almost home!!! BAH/GAH!! Before Trina leaves, we need to have a Wonders night. So... yeah.

This summer has kinda sucked so far. But I have a feeling it's going to be epic and lots are going to change. In a good way. : )

Love youuu

QUOTE:
"A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are."

BONUS!:
"Don't dwell on the past. Your history can't be erased, but your future has yet to be written. Make the most of what's going to happen, instead of worrying about what you can't change. Don't waste your time being sad, because you're wasting away moments in which you could be happy."

EXTRA BONUS!:
"The hardest thing in life is to know which bridge to cross and which to burn."

i swear, i thought this day would never come haha. but i'm FINALLY done. and this will be my last blog until fall! (i figured i still would since.. idk. since i feel like it. i doubt anyone will read it though haha) i'm done with my finals at last and now i'm just killing time until my dad gets here which won't be for another like, 2 hours...

i'm not going to blog about the weather but i find it interesting. it was beautiful weather this whole week and now it's like rainy and depressing. not really helping. i'm excited to come home for the summer but it is kind of sad to leave. :/ i'm sure you all know what i'm talking about. and it's weird that freshman year is OVER after soo much anticipation and expectation.

so since last week, i studied for finals, went to snuffy's and had a little kid birthday party for my friend natalie, complete with pin the tail on the donkey, chalk, and bubbles. then katie's friend sarah came up and we played a drinking game with their soccer video and just acted stupid haha it was a fun night though.

monday, tom came to visit! we had lunch at punch and dessert at cafe latte and it was nice to see him again. i don't really want to have a summer thing for him again for the 3rd year in a row but.. who knows, it might happen. haha. :]

tuesday, lizzie and erik came to visit! we had ice cream at grande ole creamery and it was a good time. :]

wednesday i studied and worked and i don't know what else.. haha. katie and i reflected on our year because we felt that it was in order and it was her last night. we went month by month and thought about everything that's happened and everything we've done. it was really nice haha :]

thursday i had my communications final and that was really easy and i got an A- so woohoo! after that i went outside and got kind of a tan! at least more than before :P then i worked and katie left and the rest of us went to izzy's (ice cream). jess left in the afternoon and as much as i don't like her, it was kind of sad to have my room like, half empty. so i crammed for my finals today and watched tv by my lonesome.

that's about it. i'll be home soon and i'm anxious to see you all! :]

Hello everybody. So I kinda realized that nobody blogged this week, but I don't care. I had an interesting week. Therefore I will blog. BUT this will be my last blog of the year cuz I'm sure I will see you all over the summer and there will be no need for blogging. :)

Thursday- Nothing special. Class and babysitting is pretty much all I did. But it was my last night babysitting so I got paid and that was nice :)

Friday- Last day of classes! That was exciting but sort of anti-climactic since I had already had a really slow week regarding classes. Friday night was pretty chill and I don't even really remember what I did. I think that was the night I watched Euro Trip in Emily and Anna's room. That was funny. Ha ha.

Saturday- was Ariel's birthday and the most interesting day of the year at Luther for me. Woohoo! You guys will finally get to read about something interesting coming from me! Isn't this exciting? Anyways. There was an outdoor picnic on the Library Lawn and Ariel and I went to that. The food was okay. They had giant turkey legs which were scary and reminded me of the Renaissance festival or something. After lunch I skyped with Sam only to be interrupted twice by stupid fridge issues. First I had to rapidly clean the fridge by myself because apparently it was due in like 10 minutes and both Ariel and Hannah were gone. (Hannah had rented the fridge at the beginning of the year). Then Hannah came back and we carried it up to the stairs to the front of Brandt so it could be picked up. Nobody was there to pick it up. So we carried it back. Then Hannah left to go to work and Ariel and I had to carry it all the way to the Olin loading dock. It was heavy and drippy and gross and it made my arms hurt and it wasn't fun. Sorry about all the info on the fridge. I promise that was not the most exciting part of the night haha. For dinner we all went to Don Jose's (Mexican restaurant which is yummy but not quite as good as Teresa's) for Ariel's birthday. That was good and made me feel very full. Then me, Becca, Anna and Adam went to Wally World where I got the most random assortment of things: Tinkerbell dress up slippers, a bubble gun, a Cosmo, some Clorox wipes, a Magic Tree house book and a sketchy romance novel. Yep. Needless to say I didn't want the checkout person to think I was some sort of psycho pedophile so I checked out at the self checkout. Haha. After that Anna and I went back to my room to start getting ready for Ariel's birthday night out! We then proceeded to Becca's room where I drank for the very first time. Awww how exciting Ali is growing up! Haha it wasn't that big of a deal cuz I only had about 2 and half drinks and they weren't even very strong. I was kinda frustrated cuz I was like "Uh hello? Aren't I supposed to be feeling something? Nothing is happening!" Haha I guess I maybe was a tiny bit buzzed which was good enough for me cuz it was my first time and I really didn't want to be a sloppy mess. Ariel however, had about as much to drink as Anna and I combined and she was quite dripsy (in between tipsy and drunk). That was really funny. She kept touching my butt and being all giggly and whatnot. Becca is quite the partier and she was really out of it by the time we left campus. But yeah then we went to Roscoe's which is this little bar just outside of campus. You only have to be 19 to get in...so that's pretty much where everybody goes for fun. And it was a blast! I got hit on by 5 guys (success) and even danced with one (unintentionally). And it was just super fun to go crazy and dance with my girlfriends. I loved it. Who would've known? I got back at about 1:30 and then didn't get to sleep til about 3 cuz there was an awesome fire alarm...

Sunday- Epic cleaned our room. Found a nasty black shriveled banana...that was gross. Then did a little studying in the evening.

Monday- Day one of finals. Had my theory final in the morning (easy) and my Paideia final in the afternoon (easy but waaaaaay to much writing). Then I went to one more crappy Music Ed class and just chilled the rest of the night.

Tuesday- French final in the morning (easy), then I just chilled in my room til my daddy got there. Then my dad and I went to the bookstore where I got a cute Luther tee-shirt. And then I left by 4! Got home at 6:3o and hung out with Sam.

Wednesday- First day of summer was PERFECT. Woke up early and did some unpacking. Layed out and tanned and read Cosmo. Made lunch with Sam and my mom. Had an afternoon romp. Went on an epic walk with Sam and tried to visit Ruairi. Went to my brother's baseball game. Played volleyball with Sam and his friends and got to hang out there with Coco and Marie! Then ended the day with a Planet Earth at Sam's house.

So that was my epic week. It was awesome. I am so excited for summer and hanging out with all of you people. Love you guyssss! Sorry for the length of this post...haha

I decided to blog when I am in a really good mood, since with finals and moving out and all I have been a little crabby lately. 

Monday was my last day of drawing! Woo! And then I worked on homework and stuff the rest of the day.


Tuesday I had class all day and then Eric picked me up and we went to El Patio then back to his house to watch a movie, I honestly didn't know before this night whether he liked me or not, and I was about ready to just move on, and then....he kissed me. And he was a veryyy good kisser and that was nice. And then we decided to be responsible and actually do homework, so he wrote a paper and I studied notes and he brought me home really late.


Wednesday I had my final critique for drawing that I was completely dreading and it wasn't even that bad. Then night class we got out 2 hours early because our prof wasn't feeling well so I utilized my time by doing homework, and sort of overheated my computer and had a meltdown. But I just went to bed, and it was all good the next day.


Thursday I slept through my last bio, went to 3D design and actually got work done, and skipped tech and english and went to Starbucks instead with some girls from my wing and Mal. Then we watched grey's and some other random stuff happened like Mal finding a used condom from her roommate that is at least a month old since Steph moved to her house a month ago...And there was a spider in my room and other exciting dorm stuff. Then Eric came over at like 1 because he'd been finishing up his teaching portfolio and we talked about us and stuff.


Friday I slept innnnn. Got up, cleaned, Studied ArtH and bio with Hannah and then went to dinner with Mal. We all headed over to Eric's house for a get together that night, and Mal had wayyy too much so I ended up babysitting but Eric was being very publicly affectionate so that made things better.


Saturday I moved a lot of stuff home, went to lunch with my parents and came back and cleaned and then we walked down to water street for dinner and came back and watched Avatar, then Eric picked me up and I spent the night at his house (nothing extreme happened, it was just convenient and nice.)


The Eric things seems to be moving fast, but we both have limits and we'll just have to see what happens. We're just trying to enjoy each other's company as much as we can before summer :]


I know this week is going to fly by because I have 1 final Monday, shopping and partying on Tuesday for Mal's birthday, and 2 finals wednesday then I am here for a couple more days and then it's back to lakeville for over 3 months...


I'm excited to see you all but i'm sad this is being put on hold. I feel like i'm just getting close and comfortable with the people around me and it's been a lot of fun. 


For those of you with finals still: Good Luck! And for those of you on summer: You Suck!


Love you all, miss you all xoxo

(NOTE- I added something to the end of this so scroll down even if you already read it!!!!!!!)

well.. final as in last day of classes haha. i'm so jealous of all y'all who are done (or really close!) because i still have a WEEK left. oh well. it'll be fine. it feels really good to be done with classes, that is for sure.

i am currently addicted to "come around" by MIA. listen to it. it's so funny.

hmmm this week. it was stressful.. i had lots of papers and stuff. but i got it all done! and i think i did well on most of it too. i had my friend change my facebook password so i wouldn't go on which was a good idea because it kept me more focused on what i had to do...

i was home last weekend (as you probably know) and got to see lots of people who i love :] sidenote - i definitely keep getting distracted while i'm trying to write this. haha. hmmm what else... 2 of katies friends were up here on monday so i hung out with them a bit. i feel like i'm slowly meeting all her friends haha but i will probably hang out with them this summer since they're cool and so close.

i really can't think of what else happened. i had a really quick interview at macy's on sunday and i'm still waiting for them to email/call me :/ tonight i'm watching the newsies and going to davannis with my friends and tomorrow we're going to snuffy's and then we're gonna play a drinking game with katie's soccer video haha..

that's really about it! i'm excited to come home for the summer and see you lovely ladies, have bonfires, lay out on the beach, sip lemonade.. you know :] love you girls!!

TWO THINGS TO ADD:

1 - my roommate went on a date with ben pierce lastnight. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. glad i got that out of my system. haha.

2 - i have a quote for y'all haha it's on my friend's blog and i love it. "Like ivy, we grow where there is room for us."

So guess who forgot that it's Thursday?
Me.
Why?
Cause I've lost track of days/times already.

Since I am currently jobless (hopefully not for long) and nobody is home yet... it's been extrememly boring.

On Friday I met up with Maddy and Ali and Heather for a while. And then Ali left and we went to Perks and Nick came for a little bit. We were there for a long time.

Saturday I went to Cabaret with Sarah and then we met Maddy at the AV Perks and Emily joined us. Cabaret was good.

Sunday was Mother's day so we went down to my Grandma's and it was a landmarking visit for me. Why? Cause for some reason, it was the first time we've ever been there where I was with the adults the entire time. Usually me and Collin are assigned children duty downstairs but Collin went down and I stayed upstairs and was all mature and adult-like.

Monday I started my summer workout plan. Cause I need to lose the freshman 500. Haha. Then I job searched and spent a frickin HOUR on making a resume. Which looks freaking great. But it took forever.

Tuesday I unpacked the rest of my stuff and finished finding homes for it all for the summer. That's pretty much it.

Wednesday I met up with Brianna at Caribou for a few hours and caught up and girl chatted and whatnot. Then I went to Collin's baseball game. Where we got rained on. A lot. I was mad at myself for not wearing my rainboots. But his gf Sarah was there and sat with my mom and me and we did some girl bonding talking about prom coming up and all that jazz. I like her. I think I'm gonna be okay with her being over here all the time like my parents say she usually is. It was weird cause on Friday when I was unpacking her and Collin came home after school and I go upstairs to get some water and she's just in the kitchen looking through the cupboards for food like it's her home too. Which is normally fine. But this was the second time I'd ever seen her in my house. So that was weird. But it's all good.

Today I've been cleaning a lot. My dad left to go up north with some friends for opening fishing weekend so my mom is all LET'S GET EVERYTHING CLEAN. Cool, mom.

But yeah. I'm looking forward to being the big sister taking prom pictures for my brother. : ) And then that night whoever is in Lakeville is invited to my house for a bonfire. I wish more of you (if any of you...) would be home so we could be like ANTIPROM PARTY wooo. But it won't be as fun without you lovely ladies. : (
We'll have to have an anti- high school party or something when y'all are home. Haha

Ummm yeah. It's still superrr boring. COME HOME SO I'M LESS BORED.

Lovee

QUOTE:
"You don't realize how much it means to me when you tell me you remember."

BONUS!:
"What you left unspoken is speaking louder than anything you've ever said."

Hello all. Sorry about forgetting to blog last week!

This is my very last week that I'll be blogging from here at Luther. Yeeeeeeeeees. I am sooooo excited to be done. I am sick of school. And I am sick of the people here. Time for Ali to go home. Haha. But yeah. I have finals Monday and Tuesday and then I am done. I don't think I'll even study. They are all gonna be really easy.

Saturday I think I am going to Roscoe's with Ariel cuz it'll be her birthday. It's the sketchiest bar ever. I'm not planning on drinking, but I do really want to dance. Hopefully it's fun...

I had a really good weekend last weekend. I enjoyed going to the mall and visiting all the goth kids and the kittens. And I had a great weekend with Sam. Saturday night we just snuggled on his couch and watched a Planet Earth and that was a nice for a change to have an innocent night. Haha. I was kinda laying on him and in the middle of it he bent down and kissed me on the top of my head. It was the sweetest thing ever. He still makes me get that tummy feeling :) Plus he finally gave me my birthday presents. It was awesome. A volleyball (to practice so I can get good and play this summer) a pretty necklace and a hilarious homemade card.

Speaking of gifts, Maddy gave me a Planet Earth coloring book....but I am really mad cuz I left it at home. So now I have a box of 96 crayons here...but nothing to color.

I got the news Sims game this weekend. And it's been really distracting. Haha

I really want it to be nice out so I can get tan and stop wearing the same sweatshirt every day. Plus I got a new suit...so I wanna lay out.

Ariel is currently trying to teach Hannah how to dance sexily and it is making me want to dance. I am gonna go join. Hopefully they include me. Sorry this blog was so random.

Love you all!

Hey girlies! I'm going to do really quick bullets.

* My frisbee team had regionals this weekend and we got 9th and experienced every season of weather (rain, sunny, hail, thunderstorm)

*My family came to watch frisbee and bailey had a dance comp out here too

*My mom helped me pack up my room today and damn do I have waaayy too much stuff and my room is quite bare now

*I just started studying for my chem final that is tomorrow night a couple hours ago and i studied for 2 weeks straight last semester so this will be interesting... but its all good

*I have not been on facebook since last week because i gave my password to a friend so I would focus more on finals and papers... its been working really well.

*I watched the sunrise from the library last week because I was there all night... as in until 6am... the time I used to wake up for class in high school.... crazy

*I started and finished my first 20 page paper in under a week.

*I wrote a different surprisingly intellectual paper looking at how vampires represent minorities parrticularly in twilight

*I am really going to miss the seniors here that I have gotten to know... most are staying in the boston area but it is so hard to stay in touch.

*I am getting really nervous for orgo this summer!

*In two days I will officially be a sophomore

*in three days I will be in NJ/NY with some friends and then my mom!!!

*On the 19th I will be home for a whole three months!!!! Sooo pumped!!!

*I am exhausted and need to get sleep so I can power study tomorrow and ace this chem final!

GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR STUDYING AND FINALS AND PROJECTS AND PAPERS (AND RELAXING MISS LIZZIE)

LOVE YOU GIRLS!

So this last week wasn't much to speak of, no sleep, too much homework, and a lot of cancelled classes. Last monday Life drawing was cancelled because my teacher was deathly ill with the flu (seriously, she's old). Then I stayed up wayyyy tooo late working on homework and accidentally slept through my alarms and woke up right as bio was starting. Luckily Hannah got me the notes. Then English that same day was cancelled so I got to go back and nap which I rarely ever have time for. Wednesday we unfortunately had drawing even though my teacher is still sick. But Mollie and I skipped out of ArtH early and went to Racy's, our local coffee place. Then Thursday I had all of my classes, but it was the last day of the week so that was ok. Then Mollie came over for a while that night, and then Eric picked me up and we went back to his house because there were some people hanging out there. Kayla came later but we'd both been drinking earlier and apparently we were quite entertaining. I ended up getting trapped in Eric's room by this guy Cody who wouldn't stop serenading me and Eric so kindly offered to save me but my phone was on silent :[ but I eventually escaped, found out Cody has a gf and tends to hit on girls while drunk. Good to know. Eric spent a majority of the night with me this time, unlike at his party...which was nice and I got to meet his roommates and friends officially. They were all a lot of fun to hang out with. And basically I have no idea what's going on with him and I...he was sending me some very cute texts this weekend saying how he'd love some company over the summer especially if it was me and i'm going to his house on tuesday night to watch a movie with him even though he said i'll be horrible for his focus but he doesn't care...So confusing. Saturday I went shopping with my mom for her birthday and then we had a delicious family dinner of fish and rice. Sunday my dad made breakfast and then Mal brought me back. Last night Eric came over for a little while and things seemed good, we were having a floor party since the futon is gone...and then Scott came over later and Lizzie met him via skype. He stayed until like 3, but that was ok because I finished the first "draft" of my final self portrait in that time. This week is going to be quite busy as well, I have a couple of papers due tomorrow, self portrait due wednesday and then lots of studyingggg and lots of socializing to be done before summer. 


Love you all, miss you all. xoxo

kind of a rollercoaster week.

so last friday was kind of a shitshow. well not at first haha. after my classes were done, i went to target with katie to get white shirts for the anticipated highlighter party and we ate panera. yum :] then i went with heather to erika's birthday party which was fun but everyone was like drunkish and moshing and we only knew like 3 people but it was still a decent time haha. after a confusing series of events, katie and i ended up at the u and met up with her/our friends at sammy's (the jew frat haha) and had a good time at the highlighter party! i was nervous because we didn't know where we were going to sleep but like we knew enough people that we would figure it out somehow and we ended up in her friend colin's room. woke up feeling reallyyyy trashy.

we got back to st thomas by way of taxi and i worked most of the afternoon with a slight hangover haha. that night we played bingo and i won catch phrase and a soccer ball! we hung out with my friend colleen's cousin who was visiting which was kind of awkward.. we got ice cream from izzy's and watched tarzan in my room haha and played some catch phrase. jess was gone all weekend which was nice but she's always gone when i'm hardly in my room anyway! ironic. sunday must've been uneventful because i don't remember anything happening. i think i worked again.

nothing else was too exciting about my week. i was really emo one night because ben like opened up to me kind of about some family stuff he has going on and it just made me kind of depressed haha and it kind of related to other stuff in my own life so it was just.. depressing. i feel so bad for him because all he wants to do is be home right now but he acts like nothing's wrong and just like smiles and carries on like whatever. it's pretty impressive. but i'm glad he could talk to me about it and i'm kind of like his number one go to person in choir haha which sounds dumb but he used to ask this guy mitch about stuff like just what time we're supposed to be somewhere or asking him to sign him in when he's not there and now he asks me.. which is cool :] but obviously he has a girlfriend and i'm not going to try anything stupid. i kind of drunk texted him on friday haha oops but he understood.

i think that's about it. i had my choir concert lastnight which went really well. we sang the mozart requiem with like a professional orchestra and it was pretty legit. :]

oh and i didn't get the job at camp which is too bad BUT that means i'll be home all summer! :] i have an interview at macy's this weekend so i'm hoping to get a job there but we'll see what happens. i'm anxious to see many of you this weekend and i will see the rest of you when i come home in 2 weeks! <3

Hey Hey Heyyyy

Alrighty so on Friday my parents went down to Kato to take a huge load of stuff home. So they brought the couch, carpet, and a billion boxes of stuff I wouldn't need until I went home. Then they took me out to eat at Applebee's where I saw one of the attractive guys from my theatre class working. Unfortunately he didn't see me. In theatre that day, I did my theatre final monologue. And I must say- I did pretty fantastic. After class everyone kept saying how well I did. Which made me feel pretty darn good about myself.

Saturday I woke up suuuper early so I could go be a judge at an elementary school science fair. It was awesome! I judged a group of 4th graders in the category of Family Consumer Science. The kids were so smart and really knew what they were talking about! There was one about what kind of liquid stays coldest longest, which gum keeps its flavor longest, what kind of pot boils water the fastest, which popcorn pops the most kernals, what kind of glue is the strongest, what container keeps cheese the freshest longest, what golf ball bounces the highest, which paper flies the farthest, what color fabric is the hottest in the sun, what kind of mac and cheese do kids like best, and which liquid does cereal absorb the most of. They were all really impressive. Like I am totally doing that again!
Afterwards, I was super tired cause I had to get up at 630 that morning. So I was planning on vegging out in my room and watching movies and stuff in bed. But then Nick and Tige were texting me to go over to the boys' apartment to watch all the Lord of the Rings movies. So despite feeling like I would fall asleep any second, I went over there and watched LOTR until 4am with Nick, Matt, Tige, and Tiffany. It was fun. But I slept through the entire 3rd movie and part of the 2nd.

Sunday I found out my right ear piercing was infected. It was oozing puss and it was puffy and it was HORRIBLE. I flipped out cause I didn't want it to get so bad that I had to take them out and let them close up. Again. So I spent like, 45 minutes cleaning it until it was puss-free and I took it out to clean the earing and the ear separately and then I put it back it, trying to have it looser than it was to prevent another infection. But the earrings I got them pierced with are so stiff it was really tough to manuever them at all so I need to switch them with some my mom has that are easier to move around. But anyway, that was my Sunday.

Monday I went to lunch with Kellen cause it was the last time I'd see her before summer. We went to Panera and I had one of the best bagels I've ever had in my life. (Probably just because I hadn't had good food like that in a while.) And we talked a lot and whatnot and then we went back to campus and rocked out to Love Drunk. Which made it feel like summer. Then I went to my one and only real final- biology. It was surprisingly MUCH easier than I expected. (And I only studied for a half hour before the test...) So that was nice.

Tuesday my friend Kirsten came over and we worked on our online speech final. Where I got 95%. WIN. I'll be getting A's in everything except bio where I'll be getting a high B. WIN AGAIN. Then we went and sold back our books and went on a mini picture taking adventure. Hopefully the pics will be on fb soon cause they're cute. Kya came over later and we worked on her monologue since our teacher bailed on her. After she left, I started hardxcore packing. And Melissa took a nap at an awkward time. Which made it difficult for me to pack. And then she went to bed oddly early. It was weird. I didn't like it.

Wednesday I woke up and went to theatre to watch the rest of the monologues and then when I got back to my room I kept on packing. Then Melissa took another nap. At 10 in the morning. I was pissed because she knew my parents were coming and I was moving out that day. Like, hi, some respect please? I told my parents not to make any special effort to try to be extra quiet cause it was rude of her to do that. Eventually she woke up again and kept to herself while we finished packing and moved out. Luckily, we were done moving everything else out in an hour and a half. Somehow. So I was able to check out super early. And me and Melissa had an awkward goodbye. I saw her in the lobby after she got done with lunch and I told her I was able to check out early so I wouldn't be in the room again. And she was just like, oh. Have a good summer? And I said you too? And that was it. NO MORE ROOMMATE!!!!!! : D
My parents took me to eat because I had a BWW cupon thing for free wings so we did that. And then went home. And unloaded the car. And then we went to Collin's baseball game. It was SUPER windy and cold and it rained a little bit- but I was still glad I could go cause I obviously hadn't been to one all year yet and only was able to go to like one or two last year. I like supporting him. : )
While my parents went out with friends for Cinco de Mayo and Collin went to a Euro study group- I came home and chilled on the couch for the rest of the night. I was super tired and it's exactly what I needed. So that's what I did.

Today, I woke up at 130. Read some Dear John (yes, for the second time) and have been watching Planet Earth. After I finish this I'm going to shower and unpack some more. Collin has another baseball game today so after that everyone will be home again and his girlfriend Sarah might come back with them too. So I need to look semi presentable. Seeing as I've only really met her/talked to her once.

I'm excited to see a bunch of you this weekend! And I can't wait for everyone to finally be home for the summer- like me!! : )

Within the last week, something's changed. I'm not sure what it is. But it's good. Something inside of me is telling me to take all the bad that's been going on, take it, embrace is, and find the good in it. It's like something's been lifted from my shoulders. Which is silly. But something has stopped weighing my spirits and smile down. It's so nice. : ) I've been in such a good mood and have been so positive. It's awesome. Just keep reminding yourself that no matter how bad it gets, no matter how low you feel, no matter how stressful something seems- there is always something positive you can take from it!

Love you girls!

Y'all can do it! I believe in you! And like Ruairi always say, keep smiling!! : D

QUOTE:
"Take chances, have no regrets. Reach out. Be mature, but never grow up. Do something you would only dream about. Smile because you can. And if you're thinking about, don't think twice; because time waits for no one."

BONUS!:
"There is more to life than just living."

woahh guys we are practically sophomores... umm so where did Freshman year go exactly?
Like I have no idea! There are so many things I wanted to do and oops not time left! This is soooo bizarre! I feel like I have known my friends here for a long time and it really hasn't been that long. And I have def drifted from friends at home. This summer is going to be so weird. But awesome nonetheless. It is just so crazy to see how much things have changed in a year. This time last year we were all kinda worried about our last AP tests and prama and I had just decided that I was coming to Brandeis. And all of the craziness of the end of high school. I wanted it to be over so bad but now I look back at the pictures and we really did have some good times. I mean college is like that too but its just that the work really doesn't end I feel guilty when I am not doing work. But thats life and part of growing up. How weird is it that we will all truly be on our own... probably talking about visiting home for a week in the summer instead of pretty much (except Mads and Trina) being home all summer as soon as next summer or at least in a couple years. We are all growing up so fast and like once junior year of high school starts I swear life hits fast forward. there are so many things that I want to do and there is just never enough time. But I have really tried to make a commitment lately to staying positive and living in the moment with no regrets. We can't be like Hermione and go back and do things twice and or change things of the past so we must just accept it. Life is what it is and its all about what you make of it. So things don't go as you planned, the person who slacked off in class next to you did better on the test than you, you have never or currently don't have a boyfriend, or life is just tough in general. It will get better... it has to.. there is always sunshine after the rain. And its kind of fun to dance in the rain...scratch that... really fun! And those experiences are what make you who you are. Life is tough but you make it through. And honestly the grades you get and the money you make and all of that are not as important as the relationships you make and the experiences you have. Sorry this got really deep and like oh everyone be happy and rainbows and butterflies.. i know life is tough and its not perfect this is ust kinda what came out as I started to type and I;m holding on to this belief with everything I have. Which you guys know this is totally me :) Anyways soo pact... can we not let stupid bullshit bring us down/apart this summer and just instead live up every moment. Let stake advantage of being young and just go crazy and be ridiculous. We are only young once and I have missed you guys. I think we need to make a to do list of fun stuff and just do them periodically throughout the summer! Because it is all about the experiences you have and the memories you make. I love you guys and I want you to know that yeah I have been MIA but I am here if you need me anytime! Like for real! I will always make time for you! Good luck with your hell weeks and finals and stuff... remember you got this! You know this stuff!! <3

This weekend was insane, as will be the next few weeks. I'm not really in the mood to blog. But basically this week was really busy, not much sleep, I went home on Thursday and went to Tom's concert at Station 4 then Friday worked on homework and ran errands and went to Erika's birthday party, and Saturday Tom graduated and I went to dinner then to Ali's for her birthday and our Perky's date.  And then Sunday was my birthday and we went to brunch at Roasted pear with my grandparents and then they drove me back to school, and yesterday I kinda just sat around my room and people just stopped by all night, Eric came over for a while and we watched Sherlock Holmes. It was a good night overall but nothing all that exciting. I'm not coming home until the 21st now probably...but I only have 7 actual days of classes left and 2 days of finals... I may add more later when i'm not in the middle of homework. 

alrighty. kind of another crazy week.

i guess i wrote about friday last week but for those of you who i didn't tell, i had a little crush on katie's friend eric haha... he is veryy cute and funny and just a great guy in general. i hung out with him like twice and the first time was awkward because we were all sober haha and there were a ton of people that i didn't know. but then we hung out again and it was less awkward. but i didn't want to tell katie because he went out with our friend erin for a long time and i know he's pretty off limits because they broke up recently. basically i asked her when they broke up because i was curious and shes like don't even go there. apparently he is still very much in love with erin. soo he's still pretty off limits. but at least he's single this time? haha...

i still kind of like ben but i'm getting over it. i go through phases where i like him again and then he like does or says something where im kinda like.. ehh. and he has his girlfriend that he's quite happy with haha. i just feel like he's flirting with me sometimes the way we like tease each other. but i think i'm just over analyzing it.

anyway saturday i went over to katie's dads and watched "an education" which is like my new favorite movie. honestly, you should all watch it if you haven't seen it!! sooo good.

sunday i was lazy most of the day and then we had our dance competition for dance club... haha it was kind of embarrassing. but a lot of fun, so that's good.

monday and tuesday must've been uneventful because i don't remember anything happening haha. wednesday we had our dance show! my parents took me out to eat beforehand which was nice and then they came to the show as well as christina. there was a good turn out and i think it went well! our group dances were like.. blahh. but i had fun and i think my lyrical duet turned out well. so thats cool i guess :]

that damn stats project is stressing me out still. i feel bad too because it seems like ben is doing so much more than i am but he's kind of just volunteering himself to do it.

oh and i'm PISSED because i have tickets for kate nash next wednesday and now i don't think i can go because we have a dress rehearsal for our choir concert that's the next day. and if you aren't at the dress rehearsal you like, fail choir. not even joking. so i'm really really really mad about that. really.

oh and another thing that pissed me off is that jess had her friend (yeah, her one friend.) sleep over lastnight and she slept in my bed when i told her i'd prefer for her to sleep on the floor... like i'm not sure if she just misunderstood me or what but it made me kind of mad. like she slept on top of my covers so its not like a huge deal but i told her i'd rather have her not. cool. and now shes like taking over our room. and as i write, she sprays her hair some more. yuck. not my favorite person at the moment.

so yeah, that was my week. tonight i'm going to erika's birthday party with heather and then probably over to the u with katie for a highlighter party woooo haha. so hopefully it'll be a good weekend! only a few more weeks left... haha i'm jealous of all y'all getting done earlier than me. BUT. the weekend before my finals (the 14th etc) i might be able to hang out if anyone wants to come visit me because my finals aren't until thursday and friday so i have like 3 extra days to study haha. so, holla. grand ole creamery? :]

i hope you all had a good week and aren't too stressed about finals! and have a wonderful weekend!! <3

Guess who forgot it was Thursday therefore her turn to blog?
This girl right here.

Friday I ushered for the last time for an original show called Virgin Territory. It was really really good. And really got me thinking. Then I met up with Kellen and we went over to the boys' apartment for some, um, stuff. It was pretty chill. We stayed up until 530 but other than that, nothing exciting.

Saturday I had the IMPACT banquet and I won a bunch of awards. Which I was not expecting. It was a nice little surprise. : )

Sunday I had my last choir concert. We did... okay. Could've been better. Afterward my aunt, her boyfriend, and my grandpa went to eat at Friday's. Where I was hit on by some creepy waiter. Haha Oh well.

Monday I registered for classes. I'll be taking Philosophy: Culture, Identity, and Diversity. Health: Drug Education. Sociology: Courtship, Marriage, and Family. Theatre: Intro to Theatre. And Choir. I'm auditioning for the concert choir. Hopefully I get in.

Oh, I decided what I want to do with my life. (Don't judge me. I really want to do this.) Secondary Education, emphasis in English. Minor in theatre.

Tuesday I started getting really sick. Like, allergies and sinus sick.

Wednesday EVERYTHING went wrong. I had the shittiest day I've had in a very long time. I just needed SOMETHING to make me feel better. But nothing did. It was a really bad day.

Today I've been really bored. I have no more homework. Really only have to study for one final. All activities are done...Ugh.

Although I've been bored, there's been a lot going on in my life right now. I don't really want to get into it. I just need summer like right now. Six days... About 12 days too long. : (

QUOTE:
"Let's be nothing. I heard it lasts forever."

BONUS:
"In one moment your entire life can change course. The moment you decide where you're going because you refuse to go back to where you've been."

Sooo this is gonna be short. I have been on the computer for 2 and a half hours writing a rough draft of a paper that is due on Friday...so I am pretty much sick of typing haha.

Last weekend was soooo awesome. I went to Madison with Becca. The drive was so much more fun with a friend! Haha. And basically all weekend Sam and I sat around and did nothing. We slept in both days. Watched a lot of Planet Earth. Had a lot of sex. (sorry if that's tmi, but you probably could've guessed it anyways haha) And we basically only left to get food. If it had been nicer out Sam was gonna take me on a picnic at this incredibly beautiful garden, buuuuuuut it was freezing and rainy all weekend...so that didn't end up happening :( And yeah...agh.....the best part of the weekend is probably not appropriate to discuss on Blogger...soooo I guess if you wanna know about that you can ask.

This week at school however, has sucked. All of a sudden I am feeling left out again, but I'm trying really hard not to let that get me down! I ate dinner alone on Monday and was rejected by Ariel for eating dinner with her on Tuesday and she almost left for lunch without me today. So idk what it is. People just don't like eating with me? Haha idk. It's annoying. But I guess today was better. I went out to Walmart and T-Bocks with Becca and got some ice cream at Sugar Bowl too. Ahh the benefits of having a car here for a week.

I am excited about this weekend. My family is coming here Friday night for my choir concert and then I am going home. And then Saturday is my birthday! And hopefully I will get to go to Perkies with Heather :)

Anyways....time for me to pee. And do a little more homework...and then sleep sounds marvelous...Soooooo I'll talk to you all later! Love youuuuuu

Hola Chicas!

Sooooo another week has come and gone. It feels like time is flying at this point. I'm done with all of my homework for the semester and on to finals and final projects. 


Let's see if I can even remember what happened this week...


Monday I had drawing :[ but it was pretty easy for once, then Hannah and I had a long lunch and I ended up staying up until after 3 doing homework and writing papers and sewing burlap. 


Tuesday I was extremely sleep deprived running on 3 hours of sleep and very cranky, but I made it through my classes and then went with Kayla to Eric's jazz band concert which was very good! Then he came back with us and we all hung out for a while, well just me and him since Kayla conveniently had homework to do in the hallway? yeah it was a little sketchy. But Eric was being ver inquisitive, and sweet and that was fun. 


Wednesday was boring like always, I slept wayyy in and didn't do much other than class, and then had night class with Mollie, and we always just giggle solid pretty much through the whole 3 hour lecture. Then she came over for a bit and we talked and stuff, I don't even remember, but yeah. 


Thursday was insane, I had a lot of stuff to do for Romeo and Juliet and that was stressful and then I studied for my art history test the next day. 


Friday I took my test, which was awkward...and then went on my date with Eric, which was also on the awkward side. Like he hadn't really been texting me and then he was super late meeting me, but he got there and was very sick, and like sweaty and didn't look good, and I felt awful that he didn't just cancel. And I asked him like why he just didn't tell me he was not feeling well and he just replied that he wanted to see me. So we walked to coffee and he was very gentlemanly and nice, and we had some good conversation but he still was obviously sick so we didn't stay very long just like an hour or so...then Friday night Kayla and Mal and I decided to hang out and watch Wall-E and then Eric said he was bringing me vodka on Saturday so we thought we should celebrate by finishing my bottle...so we did, and after like 3 shots each we were beyond hyper, we ended up going on a little adventure and breaking into some of Kayla's friends' room and being weird. If you've seen the pictures on facebook, yeah that explains the night.


Saturday I was super lazy.  Then Kayla's dad calls and as she's saying goodbye he just says "I brought my sleeping bag and everything I'm so excited to stay in a dorm!" Yeah. We thought he was staying in a hotel, and he had no idea about our party plans that night...so we scrambled to figure out what to do, and during the process Eric showed up with the goods :] and yeah we ended up getting her dad a hotel room and it all worked out. But he lingered until almost 11:30 so we didn't even get our cab or to the party until midnight. And like it was at Eric's house for his roommate and it was ALL music majors or music ed majors. So that was fun, minus the whole fact that when we got there everyone was already pretty drunk and we go to find Eric since he's selling the cups and he has some girl pinned against the bar. Yeah. looks at us, and doesn't even actually acknowledge us for another 10 minutes or so, once the girl (very whorish and drunk) had to pee or something. So yeah, then once we had our drinks, a few people were doing keg stands and whatnot and we stumble-y danced a bunch and drank some more and noticed Eric was nowhere to be found...so I went upstairs, because I was more than pissed at this point...and there he is talking to whoreface. She left to go pee or something again, and he starts talking to me and I told him flat out he was being rude, taking off and I was mad. And then we all went to the living room to talk and there is whoreface, and he sits by her....finally she leaves so I move to her spot and tell Eric that i'm extremely angry at this point and that he invited us knowing we would only know him really and that we expected for him to at least spend SOME time with us. He knew how angry I was and apologized and said he was sorry, and he was trying but he was the only one of his roommates still semi with it so he was trying to host and house sit and take care of everyone and he realized he could've done a better job to make my good night a great night, so I thought things would get better, but then whoreface started puking in the kitchen sink, which might I add was conveniently on the other side of the little kitchen pass-through from where we were sitting, and then somehow we ended up being the last ones there so we finally got some time to just hang out with Eric. So his friend Cody was playing poker face on guitar and we had a sing and dance along, it was probably the highlight of my night with Mal dancing on the furniture and all. And when we went to leave he gave me a big hug and said that we'll hang out again when he can give the attention I want. But then once in the cab I made the mistake of drunk texting him that I think like him and then taking it back after remember how douchey he was to us...and yeah. Long story short. I don't think things are going to work out between us as anymore than friends. He's coming over either Tuesday or Wednesday to talk about our friendship...which Kayla told him he needed to do since I woke up very confused and bitter. And he told her he wanted to talk to me about it...so I guess hopefully he apologizes again and we can be friends at least. It just was strange that we go on a date after him texting me constantly and hanging out some for a week and then acts like that at the party. Whatever...


Today I did little to nothing, I stayed with Mal in the bathroom for a while and then she slept on our floor so we could watch over her. But neither of us ended up being hungover which was a good thing! So we made some spaghetti for lunch and told Jen about our festivities and then i've been working on figuring out my schedule since I register on Tuesday. 


This week I'm going home on Thursday afternoon for Tom's performance that night then graduation on Saturday. And then i'll be home for a little bit on my birthday...but mainly in EC probably...so that's kind of a sad thought. But i'm sure it will all work out, and in 3 more weeks+3 days i'll be homeee freeee :]


Love you all, miss you all xoxo