Seven Wonders

Soo winter break=blog break?

Just wanted to let you all know that I am SOO extremely unhappy with my break so far. All I've done is work. And work some more and work some more. I got to go visit Heather in EC with Ruar those two days. Other than that I've only worked. And I hate it.
Today I practically broke down crying- twice.
This winter break for me hasn't been a break. I work 7-8 hours a day, I'm always stressed about it, I've gotten less sleep, I haven't seen anybody, and I just can't get over this cold I have.
Yeah I'm earning money (that I haven't even gotten yet) but it is NOT a break.
I hate it. And I can't get any days off that I want to take off because I hardly see my manager anymore since it's been so busy.
My feet hurt constantly, I hardly see my family, I never see friends-- this isn't how I wanted to spend my first break from college and it's taking a toll on me.

So just in case you wonder where I am over break and why you haven't seen me- it's cause I'm working. And if you wonder why I'm so negative and pessimistic- it's because I haven't gotten a break and I'm not doing well with that.


Hope I get to see you at all over break.

Hey girls!

Sooo I'm thinkin this will be short and sweet, since I am technically on break and I agree with (was it Maddy?) 's idea that we take a blog hiatus over break. Haha.

So yeah. I am home. And I am happy. Today was supposed to be relaxing but then Sam decided to come home for the day to see me :) So I picked him up at the airport and we've been hanging out all day and he's still here and it's awesome. :D AND he gave me an early Christmas present. If you wanna see it I'll show ya ;)

And yep. That's about it. Bye byes!

in an effort to keep this short:

• my hyphen key is acting up. boo.
• i want to bake christmas cookies. more like i want to decorate them.
• today is my final (last) tuesday until break and also i had a final
• it was in theology. it was actually quite easy and quite short. as in an hour. yesssss.
• two more finals - one tomorrow, one friday.
  
• i want to be kissed at midnight on new years. make it happen, people. haha. just kidding.
• we had a dance show on saturday and apparently i was the only one smiling.
• overall i think it went well besides the fact that i thought my boobs were gonna fall out. cool. but they didn't.
• I'M SO EXCITED TO COME HOME. friday afternoon babyyy.
  
• friday i went to the halloween alaska concert here.. sort of.. my sister loves them so i told her i went but we just sat there for like 5 minutes. then i showed everyone teen girl squad. win.
  
• saturday we watched love actually after the dance show and jess ruined it for everyone by opening her mouth.
  
• surprisingly, i'm having some difficulty coming up with things to say.
• are we going to take a blog hiatus when we're all home for break? seems reasonable.
• can we please just talk for a minute about how negative jess is. i swear every other word that comes out of her mouth is a complaint or a sigh. (i know that's not technically a word.. too bad.)
  
• 2 of my good friends here are staying for j term and i told them i'd come visit haha if anyone would like to join me and meet them it would be a jolly good time :]
  

Heyy girls

Okay this is going to be a pretty short post. Just a quick update.

Let's see... I got home on Thursday for break!! Woo! I don't know how I did on my finals yet for sure. But I'm thinking they went pretty decent.
I started getting sick last Sunday (a week and a day ago) and I keep getting worse. I don't have a fever so I don't feel the need to go to a doctor, but I've just been feeling crappy. I think I have a sinus infection. It just sucks when I go to bed feeling bad and then when I wake up, I feel even worse than when I went to sleep. My mom might make me go in tomorrow though. Hopefully not. Until I get better though, I've started to sleep upstairs in our recliner part of our couch so I can breathe easier. It kind of sucks, not gonna lie.

I've been working pretty much non stop. Today was my first day off since I've been home. I've opened, closed, the works. I don't mind working there- I really don't. I am just hating how many hours I have to work. Yay money and all, but seriously. Next week I work over 40 hours. FOURTY HOURS. That's technically full time. That's MORE than my mom. So I need to tell them that I can't work that much the next two weeks cause I'm gonna get burned out when I'm supposed to be at home relaxing from a long semester. My mom agrees. Ugh. I don't know. Plus it gets super boring sometimes when I have nothing to do. And I'm still pretty new so I don't know everything and those pissy people drive me crazy when I'm like, "I'm sorry I'm still pretty new so I'm doing the best I can." And then they're like "Well you should know EVERYTHING about the store you're working in and you should know the differences between every kind of fabric and blahblahblah." No.

I went to the LNHS choir concert tonight. It was good/decent. Panther women sang Cantate Domino that Maddy, Trina and I sang our PW year. And then Bel Canto sang the Hodie arragment that us three sang our BC year. So I laughed a little bit that Brott uses music every four years. I sat with Calista and we sang the holiday sing a long together with them, which was cute and fun.

Other than that, I have nothing to update you on. It's time for me to go get some sleep and hopefully feel better tomorrow morning.

I can't wait until you ladies all come home!!! Please visit me at Macys!!!!

Loveee

QUOTE!:
"Don't confuse the people who are always around with the ones who are always there."

BONUS!:
"Don't base your decisions on the advice of people who don't have to deal with the results."

Sorry for the length, but there have been some complaints about me not bogging, so here. You now get EVERY detail of the life of trina!!!!

And it’s been snowing, and I feel all Christmas-y inside and I love it. Today I feel like I need to grab a cup of cheer and watch the snow…but I have stuff to do.

So to back track, this has been my week:

MONDAY!: I got back to the falls (and am staying until winter break) went to class, went to sorority elections, and chilled with grace and cammy. I did a happy dance too cuz I am one of 5 out of 200 to get an A in my bio class. Yay life!

TUESDAY!: I studied in the lounge with some friends, went to class, had a lovely transfer meal, had a deep convo with my friend cammy, met up with grace to go to a concert, did a grocery run (grace is allergic to gluten so we went hunting for gluten free food), then went ice skating with my sisters which was soooooooooo fun, but I legit tore up my calves with lovely blisters and I am a horrible ice skater. Then I went back with my dorm friends and we watched the hills and the city.

WEDNESDAY!: I went to class, did lots of work and homework, the roomie left cuz she’s sick (and making me sick) and so I took advantage of actually being in my room. (Right now, I am NEVER in my room…I go to the library, study lounges, the basement, other people’s rooms, and keep myself busy because I HATE it. After some much needed study time, I went to jimmy johns with andrea, tracy, keIly, and megan, then watched Glee with cammy, andrea, and marie and then gave grace my car keys for volleyball! I went to bed early for once too, cuz the roomie was gone.

THURSDAY!: I chilled in my room till the roomie came back, then left with grace to see another concert. After the concert we bought cheetos and chocolate and watched in the cafeteria/study area as it was being decorated for the holidays. It was one of those “laugh until you cry” days. I was so happy and it was just a blast to hang with grace, cammy, abby, and carly. We even made a video!

http://elfyourself.jibjab.com/view/WwXpMTj8OmP0qurAbrmC

it’s quality. Haha. Well we decided to go back to our rooms, and when I got back I couldn’t stand the constant coughing of my roommate so andrea and I went to the basement to chill. We tried to be productive, watched the office, were a little more productive, then decided to go up to our rooms at 10:00 only to discovered that boys had inhabited both of our rooms and so we went back down to the basement. I called my boy <3>

FRIDAY!: everyone decided to stay this weekend, so we all got done with class and chilled out together.

SATURDAY!: I studied, then andrea, megan, and I went to the grocery store and bought cookie dough and pizza. We made it in the basement, had a quick rant session and went back to studying. Then I had my AOII semi-formal, which was kind of lame, so cammy and I left early to have a dance party in her car. Then cammy left and grace was bored so I picked her up and we stayed in my room until 2 am talking.

SUNDAY!: what a day. Woke up at 11 to grab food with grace then went to an AOII meeting from 12-6 (yes a 6 hour long meeting). After, I went with jenny, megan, Kelly, andrea, and Lauren to my WoW leader steve’s house (and his two roommates seth and matt). We ate chicken tacos and cookies then left for home. My brain was still fried from the meeting so I chilled with megan, Kelly, jake, and dan for the rest of the night.

MONDAY!: AOII ritual and buisness meeting and class. Not much else happened.

TUESDAY!: My last bio lab!!!! I was very happy about that. Andrea, Kelly, Megan and I got transfer meals, I skipped an AOII party, and just got a lot of work done…little did I know…

WEDNESDAY!: okay, so I have class at 11 so I get up late. My friend dan calls me at 7:55 and screams SNOW DAY in my ear. I was not too excited until it sunk in and then we were all excited. Together, we made the boys go to the grocery store and buy snow-in food to have. Kelly, Megan, Andrea, Jake, Dan, and I stayed in the basement all day on the couches. We did lots of work, but got super hyper towards the end of the day. We watched the final episode of glee in megan and Kelly’s room, then Andrea, Allison, and I decided to have a sleepover, and we brought out the futon, popped popcorn, and watched “No Reservations.” Of course we fell asleep halfway through, but it was fun none-the-less.

THURSDAY!: Another successful day of not leaving the dorm. I went to Kelly and Megan’s room to study, talked with Dan a little bit, went to the basement to talk to grace, ordered in pasta dinner with andrea and Allison, and watched the office. Then I got some much needed study time in.

FRIDAY!: I wasn’t looking forward to actually walking outside after the past two days of being in, but I suppose it had to happen, and besides it was FRIDAY! I had to give a speech in speech class, and take my oral final for Spanish, and I got 100% on each! Then I chilled in Andrea’s room to watch Gilmore girls, and Kelly, megan and I watched Marley and Me…so sad.

SATURDAY!: After going to jimmy john’s with Kelly, megan, and dan, megan had a meeting so Kelly, dan and I decided it was not worth making a productive day. Instead we watched movies! We watched love actually, the holiday, and Julie and Julia. Dan bought us pizza for dinner and I even had a vitamin water and a chocolate orange!

SUNDAY!: I woke up with a horrible sugar hangover, and felt sick most of the day. We all decided to have a study party in megan’s room as our one last hoorah before finals.

So now you’re all caught up! YAY!

Hey girly girls! I gotta make this short again! I have had a pretty good week! Crazy busy studying! It feels like years ago that I actually had classes... and actually this morning feels like years ago too! Umm I can't really remember what has actually gone down except that I have been hxc studying like a fool! Like I don't think I have ever wanted to do so well on a test in my life... or at least in a long time! Okay I am exaggerating a little bit! And I have had a study schedule that I haven't broken for over a week... until today.

So this is the last Thursday I will be blogging from school this year :] So happy to be almost done, tomorrow is my last day of classes and then I have 2 art critiques and a math final and some wonderful visitors and then i'm home! I am so burnt out of school. And the drama that is my roommate. I have absolutely had it with her. 


Ok so I sat with her ALL Tuesday night while she cried for like 4 hours over breaking up with her boyfriend for smoking pot and turning off his phone when she told him she didn't agree with it. Basically he's an asshole through and through and it needed to be done but she has talked to him nonstop since Tuesday and it is only getting worse between them, I'm glad I finally learned space is ok especially during emotional times...obviously she hasn't learned this yet...but yeah, then today he called her fat over skype which led to her screaming at him for over 3 hours. Did I mention I only got close to 4 hours of sleep last night, because of her yet again, she didn't come back into the room until 5 am and then proceeded to cough obnoxiously until my alarm went off at 6. Then I had to walk across the footbridge over the river, which is one of the top 10 coldest places in the US, no joke. And that was miserable and I cried and my tears froze to my face and then I tried to wipe them and they froze to my mittens and by the time I got to class I looked like i'd been beaten up. So I had class from 8-11 and 12:30-4. And in theater we were cleaning and the girl I was working with was a complete brain surgeon, she didn't know what a stripped screw was, umm EXCUSE ME? And to top it off she's in the stagecraft class and I'm not. She should be a little more knowledgeable than me, but instead I had to coach her through every little thing. So I was extremely frustrated and then I came back to my dorm and all I wanted to do was sleep so I crawled into my bed when Kayla proceeded to skype Charlie and the screaming and swearing ensued. No sleep for Heather. No quiet for Heather. Then tonight we had a dorm Talent Show which was actually quite impressive! Now I'm back in my dorm with a crabby crabby roommate and I'm going to sleep as soon as I finish math and blogging but sadly Kayla has 3 chapters left of Astronomy to study, and because of her lack of time management she will probably be up all night, again. I feel bad because there are times when we get along SO well. And we have so much fun, but for my mental and emotional health I can't be around her when she is a complete neurotic wreck. It messes me up to much and that's the last thing I need. Sometimes I really just wish that people weren't so blinded. Maybe i've just had enough bad experiences to know and hold myself to a higher standard, but she just isn't that mature yet.


 Thank goodness she is going home tomorrow and will only be here Monday and Tuesday and is leaving Wednesday again. That makes my life a lot easier! And tomorrow cannot come soon enough! Next week cannot come soon enough. The past few times i've been home, it's really been to get away from Kayla and spend some time in civilization but right now I really want to go home to go home and relax and have quiet time. And I probably won't want to come back here for a while...I am so grateful I got a snowday yesterday though because that was the exact break I'd been needing! I wish I had more exciting news but as of right now I am painting my life away. I will see you all very soon and hopefully by then I will be caught up on sleep and a little less frustrated. Love you all!

So. It is Wednesday. The last Wednesday until break!!!!!! I am seriously so excited. 6 more days. And I am home for a month and a half!!!!!!! Tomorrow and Friday will be really slow class days, only 2 classes each day and long, long breaks. Saturday I have a jury (singing for the voice faculty). That is kind of scary but I have all three songs memorized so it shouldn't be a problem. Then Monday is hell day. Piano proficiency exam at 9 (AHHH!), Theory test at 10:15, French final at 1:15, and Paideia final at 3:30 (that'll suck cuz it's a lot of writing). Then I will babysit at 5:45 til 9:45. Holy smokes. That day is gonna wear me out. But THEN Tuesday. I have an ear training test from 10:15 til 10:45 and then my daddy is picking me up at 11. :)

So yep that is the week ahead of me.

So far this week has been kinda nuts. After my last post I had 5 Christmas at Luther performances. They were super fun and they went really well but it was all quite tiring. This week has been a TON slower since it's the week before finals. Mostly we're reviewing in classes and some class are canceled or shortened or whatever this week.

Oh fun fact about this past week. Last Tuesday, so 8 days ago, I fell off of a chair when I was standing on it hanging Christmas lights. And I don't know for sure what I did, but I am still in pain. I think I either bruised or maybe fractured my rib? Idk for sure. All I know is that sitting up and laying down is incredibly painful. Haha.

OH and last night was super fun cuz I played in the snow and fell down a bajillion times and made a snow angel. And I am mad at those of you who got snow days. Cuz I still had class. And it was frickin cold out let me tell ya! Sooooo yep. That's my life in a nutshell.

Oh yeah. I probably should mention that the last couple days were crappy for me and Sam. Like he has a TON of work to do this week for chem so the past few days I hardly got to talk to him. He'd only be able to talk at like 11:30. And by that time he was super exhausted. So he barely said anything and every conversation ended with him being ready to go to bed. And I just felt really neglected. And like, I know he was really busy and stuff....but still. I'm busy too, and I know I never make him feel neglected. So yeah....that all culminated up to me crying myself to sleep on Monday night and us talking about it yesterday. And he seemed to get it. He felt really bad and was telling me he realized all the things he wasn't doing that he should be, so that was good. Problem solved. For now. I just think the hardest thing about being in this relationship is the distance. Obviously. When we are together...everything is fine. Everything is better than fine, it's amazing. And that's cuz when I am with him, I can TELL that he loves me. Just his body language shows it. But he is really bad at expressing love through words....like he just doesn't know how to do it. He isn't like that. So when were apart all we have is words and then I end up feeling a lack of love. Even though I do know he loves me. I just don't feel it from him when were apart. Which is sad. But I think he is working on it.

So YEAH. Sorry for that long blurb. I just haven't talked about that part of my life on here in a long time and I thought maybe you'd wanna know. Maybe not. Whatevs. Haha. Anywho. I am pumped for break and can't wait to see you all! Love you!!!

heyyyyy girls.

so the boy drama has died down. i haven't talked to james since then really except for he completely ignored me on Friday which pissed me off so i texted him and he did his typical routine of blaming everything on me and i decided i'm just done with him. like, i've tried being civil and being his friend and it obviously isn't working so we're just done. he's an asshole, seriously. i don't need to be friends with him, i have enough good friends who actually respect me :]

i haven't talked to matt a lot since then but yeah i don't think anything is happening there which is fine.

i don't remember a lot about what happened last week.. i had a lot of choir rehearsals because our concert was on sunday.. on thursday i went to feed my starving children with the softball team (no, i don't play softball :]) and that was pretty fun even though i knew 2 people.

friday i accidentally skipped my choir rehearsal, decorated my "who" for our hall (with plaid duck tape from heather!) and went to in the heights!! it was really fun and a good show and all that jazz.

lets just talk for a second about how my roommate is talking to herself RIGHT NOW. i swear to god, it's neverending. and i'm so tired of her loud sighs too. i'm like.. what is your deal.

i realized the last couple days that i am actually quite an optimist compared to a lot of people.

oh and now she put mousse in her hair. dry.

but yeah when people are complaining about stuff, i find myself being the one thinking or saying "things could be worse." so thats cool i guess :P

So yeah that happened friday. Saturday i spent most of the day getting the house ready for my dad's birthday party. it was this big dinner party type thing and it was actually pretty fun. it's nice when you get to be that age where you can talk to adults without your parents and without feeling really awkward. but i was the only person there who wasn't old enough to drink which SUCKED because their friend makes these really good apple martinis.. :[ haha not like i would've gotten completely trashed but seriously they just taste good. and he puts apple slices in them so they're pretty.

Sunday morning my dad drove me to orchestra hall because i had to be there at 9 to get ready for our choir concerts. which didn't start until 4 but we had a dress rehearsal at 1 and other rehearsals before then. it was exhausting to say the least but i think we did a great job and i loved listening to the other choirs and everything.

Yesterday (monday) i skipped theology which was probably a terrible plan but i was so dang tired and we get 2 free days or whatever, neither of which i had used yet. but she's my one professor who puts grades up online and i got a 31 out of 35 on my last test so that's pretty good. yeah it was a pretty typical monday.. i want to target to get some last minute decorations for our hall because we really wanted to win. but we didn't so that was sad and i wasted 4 bucks on lights.

this week is pretty busy with dance club, we have a show on saturday which i'm nervous for because we kind of suck, kind of a lot. and i'm pretty sure our costumes will show everything that i hate about my body haha. at least i know i'm not the worst one on the team... ahem, that would be my lovely roommate.. sorry that i'm such a mean person :]

i'm so excited for finals and everything to be over so i can go home FOR 6 WEEKS (yeah i'm not taking a j-term) and be away from my roommate and be done with school for awhile and just have a nice big break and see all you lovely ladies again :]

Heyy.

So I am really not feeling well today.

And this was just a failtacular day for me.

Last Thursday and Friday I had my first finals. Which went okay. But it was super stressful and just ughhh. On Friday I rushed home to go see "In The Heights" with Maddy and Erik and Garrett. It was fun and a really great show!
Saturday I was really drained and tired. I'm not really sure why, post-stress maybe. But I went to the mall with Emily and Erik and we all got to catch up and do some Christmas shopping, and it was fun. I went home and played some old school DDR for like, two hours. I highly enjoyed it. : )

Right now I smell popcorn.

Yesterday I had my Christmas choir concert. One of the songs we sang was Heilig (one we sang all last year for France) and we were in this really echo-y church and we sang it on opposite ends so it sounded really cool. My parents came down for it and took me out to eat after and then picked up a big suitcase full of clothes and stuff for winter break so I wouldn't need to bring it all back myself. Which was REALLY great of them.

But all day yesterday and all day today I haven't been feeling well. Like my throat hurts and I'm tired and it just sucks.
I'm not going into all the details why today sucked. But just a lot of things didn't go right.
But I did sell my books back today. $183! $90 spent right away on Christmas presents for my family. UGH.

And my roommate is sick and complainy and whiney and cry-y again. Which makes me want to kick her out.

I only have one more final. It's on Wednesday. And I only need 20/220 to get an A in the class. Waste of time? Yes.

Miss you and love you girls
Can't wait for break and to see you soon!

QUOTE:
"Like branches of a tree, we grow in different directions yet our roots remain as one. Each of our lives will always be a special part of each others."

BONUS!:
"And I think maybe the worst feeling in the world is being forgotten by someone you could just never forget about."

hey guys!
okay this week has been pretty ok :)
last monday i had classes as usual, same with tuesday! then wednesday. was bad. i had been working on a marketing project for like 10 hours total the previous days, it got deleted. i swore cause i was really mad...and i felt really bad for doing that too. BUT i startted over and now it looks better so i was glad :) thursday night was rough. really rough. i dont wanna go into major details about it since its like a blog and you dont know my tone of voice and whatever, but one of my friends got drunk in the dorms and we hung out after, little did i know he was drunk, i honestly thought he was just super hyper...nothing bad happened i just felt dumb for not catching the signs...idk

this weekend i went to some basketball games! legit, it was fun! i also went to our christmas at Northwestern performance and it was good!! erica spent the weekend here and just left today!

now i get to dig in a start homework :) i love you all! and i cant wait to get together over break!

i just want you guys to know, dont stress out about finals! you all are SO INCREDIBLY smart! ok? thanks :)

Hey girls! This has to be short because I really need to start studying and I wasn't really around my computer to blog yesterday so sorry this is late and will be short!

Ok so unfortunately I was out of my room for most of yesterday night due to some unexpected roommate drama...yeah. So by the time I got back it was bedtime! But this past week has been pretty uneventful. Had a math presentation Monday which was a group final project. I got my final art projects which will take a lot of time but shouldn't  be horrible overall. For drawing I have to do a self portrait any way i'd like so I am choosing Charcoal and collage combined. It should be fairly interesting. And for color we have a series of 3 paintings based off of an interesting object to us, so I chose my favorite coffee mug and I am planning on incorporating coffee grounds, coffee/tea stains, and collage along with paint in that one...it should be fairly interesting. I just need to spend the next week or so completely dedicated to these projects. Math we only have one more test and then the final but I'm not worried because I have a pretty solid A- or maybe even an A in that class. Not much else has been going on here, most people are just studying for finals and are really stressed out. But my finals consist of drawing and painting so I can't really stress? I am very excited to come home in 13 days. And finally get out and do some Christmasy stuff! It really hasn't snowed much yet, and none of it's stayed so it's still not feeling quite like christmas time. I did do one fun thing last night, they had a tea party from around the world last night in our dorm basement and it was sponsored by our local teahouse Infinitea, And basically we went got tea cups and then you go around to different country stations and scoop some tea into a tea bag and make your tea and eat some scones and christmas cookies and I tried a bunch of different types and it was all free and delicious! That was literally the extent of my week. This weekend we have our huge Christmas Spectacular with all the choirs and it's a big deal I guess. Kayla's been gone practicing for that most of the time. So that'll be fun to go to. And other than that I'll just be collaging away all weekend while watching christmas movies :] Hope all of your finals are going well! See you all pretty soon!

Oofta. This has been one busy week. Obviously you all know the beginning of my week which was Thanksgiving break. But ever since I've gotten back it's been constant Christmas at Luther rehearsal and it is VERY exhausting. Today I was basically out of my room from 11:30 til 8. Our first performance is tomorrow and I think it's gonna be really awesome. :)

Tomorrow I have to play piano in a mini recital thing and I am scared out of my MIND! Haha.

But yeah this blog will probably be really short cuz I am sleepies.

Oh for some reason today I have been really wanting to cuddle. And it's annoying. Cuz I can't. Cuz my boy is 200 miles and 3 weeks away.

Anywho....I am already pumped for Christmas break and I can't wait to have more time to hang out with all of you! Love you guys!!

alright so even though i did see you all this weekend, there are still things to catch up on...

But first, the boring stuff. went home wednesday, scared ruairi out of her pants, went to walmart, scared james' dad and caleigh, watched the ugly truth and made brownies, and that's about it. thursday, went to my aunt and uncles for a slightly awkward yet wonderful thanksgiving. stayed up until 1 am playing family games because we are just that cool. friday we put up our tree and our boughs and got all christmas-y. aww.

this is kind of a sidenote, but i have no idea what to expect for christmas this year. it's weird to suddenly have another sister and yet not really because she has other family members she wants to see and stuff. it was so great for us to all be together again because usually it's just the 4 of us because court and i come home on different weekends. anyway, this christmas might be a lot different for me so i'm sorry if i talk about it a lot closer to it and it gets annoying but it's just a bigggg change. plus i miss debbie (her mom) a lot because we all grew up together... and it's kind of like i never had time to grieve because we had so much we had to do and obviously sympathy wasn't really focused on me, and rightfully so. anyway. just thought i'd explain that in case it comes up sometime.

so friday. after doing that stuff i went shopping with heather and garrett and james... and then friday night was trinas scary movie party! and this is where it gets interesting.

first off, matt mills and i have sort of been sexting... not really but like, jokingly. and he kept being like omg we're gonna do it on friday and stuff like that. so i just went along with it and whatever. but then at trinas house we sat by each other and nothing was happening so i was like eh whatever. but then somehow we ended up holding hands and stuff.. and it was really nice. maybe just because i haven't cuddled with anyone in so long. the thing is, i don't think i really like him and he said he doesn't like me either. but to me, holding hands isn't so much a "hey i want to cuddle" type thing.. it seems like there would have to be some kind of feelings there, ya know? but who knows. anyway i don't think i like him and the distance is wayyy too much to deal with. but it was fun anyway and i wouldn't mind if something similar happened over winter break.. ;)

also james was all like "i can't stop thinking about you" and stuff. i haven't talked to him since then which is awkward but i basically was like, it didn't work out before so why would it work out now? i think he gets it now but i just wish he could quit being a douchebag and just be happy with his girlfriend.

while we're on the subject of boys, i'm talking to tom again. not that i wasn't but i was kind of not so much because i was mad that he came home and didn't say hi to me even though he was in st. paul... but i told him that and that it made me feel like i consider him to be a better friend than he considers me to be and he said he does consider me to be a very good friend so that made me feel better.. i shouldn't have overreacted and jumped to conclusions because he really didn't have much time here. he said we should hang out over break which makes me happy because i didn't get to say goodbye to him when he left and usually i'm the one who has to ask if he wants to hang out, which makes me feel clingy and whatnot. but yeah we're gonna cuddle and watch alice in wonderland. it's already been decided. :] oh and later on in life we're getting married and moving to london and adopting some children from burma. just so you know.

sorry this is long (as usual) but there's actually some interesting stuff in it this time! i love you girls and i hope you all do well on finals and we will meet again soon :]

Well, well, well
Welcome back to blogging!!

Let's see, I don't have much to talk about since I saw most of you this weekend.
Which was AWESOME by the way. : )
It was so nice to see you all and catch up!

Hmm...
Uhh.....
Macy's is dumb and scheduled me for days I'm not even going to be in town. I forgot to call them today. Whoops.

Tomorrow is 1) My pretend birthday. I get something for free in the mini food court. 2) Last IMPACT meeting of the semester=party time! 3) Study buck auction for my dorm, meaning all the study bucks I've accumulated (spelling is wrong, I'm not taking an English class so shush) for studying in the dorms and I get to bid on stuff and win stuff, hopefully. 4)My registration date!! Wish me luck! I hope I get all the classes I want/need. I'll let you know how that goes and what I'm taking. If I get what I want, I'll have 15 credits. Which is just fine with me cause I think the classes will be harder.

I have three "finals" this week. Two are just the last tests on the last sections, one is legit. And I'm a bit nervous to try and get all the studying in this one week. I'm such a procrastinator and I'm so unmotivated. Ugh. Seriously. I'll need some luck thrown my way; thanks in advance.

I don't want to waste time recapping this weekend when I saw some or most of you for almost all of it.

So this is officially my shortest blog ever.

I hope you enjoyed it. ; P


QUOTE:
"The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is reality, and it really happened."

BONUS!:
"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life; it goes on." -Robert Frost

(PS- My quote notebook is starting to discolor. This saddens me.)

Happy Monday!

I've had the weirdest past seven days as far as my mood goes. It was everywhere, up, down, and all around.

I don't really know where to start cause I didn't write it all down again. So I don't actually remember much of anything that happened.

Except all week Macy's (where I now am considered employed) kept calling me changing when they wanted me on Friday. And they kept changing it to earlier. But I have a class at 2 on Fridays so I can only get there so early. It was pissing me off. And then not many people were going home on the weekend before Thanksgiving break so my dad had to come down and get me. But when he was halfway here, they called me again saying to just not go in Friday night and go an hour earlier Saturday. Awesome.

Since I don't remember, I'm assuming Monday-Thursday were pretty normal and boring. As is my life. But on Friday I technically had a take-home test for math but I was the only one who actually went in to class to work on it. I just like that better cause it's in a silent room and theres no distractions like facebook or anything. It was open note and open book and take home. What a fail on my prof's part. But since I was the only one there she graded it right away for me so I would know what I got, I ended up with 54/50. Def worth it. I was happy. Especially since I accidentally missed a class and a quiz of hers so that'll help cover that quiz score.
Sometime during the week I was also appointed the new RHA rep for my floor second semester. (RHA- Resident Hall Association.) So I'll be representin Gage A6 every Monday at 4pm starting January. We'll see how it goes. All I know is that it'll be good if I want to be a CA, which I do!

And then on Friday I drove myself up to St. Thomas and picked up Maddy and we went to go see New Moon. It was a lot of fun and it was a really good movie! So if you haven't seen it yet... Go with me and Ali over Thanksgiving break! Haha I have no problem seeing it again, I thought it was better than the first one. I saw this bumper sticker that I agree with, "Book Team Edward, Movie Team Jacob" Haha yeah. But it was a lot of fun and I got to see Mads' room and stuff. It made me happy that I got to see her! : )

Saturday I had Macy's training. Fuuuun. Not really. But I guess I'll be doing register that's what I found out. So... you'll have to come see me! Haha. And then I was really tired the rest of the day and so I just watched a lot of movies with my family since nobody was home that I knew of and all the high schoolers were busy with Dolly.

Sunday we started to get out Christmas stuff. Funn.
And when I got back to my dorm, my desk was kinda weird and not how I left it. When my roommate came back in the room she told me she had her friend and her bf stay in our room the night before and used "our" (ahem, Lizzie's) couch. Okay. But WHY did they need to mess up my desk?? That bothered me but I didn't bring it up again cause I like to talk to her only when necessary.

OH but I did talk to my parents and... Don't make any plans for New Years. Unless they involve coming to my house. : ) They're changing the party at our house from their generation to mine. So. That's exciting. I have all these good ideas and my dad does too. Haha. But you'll get the inside scoop before all the other not as important people. For example, that it's happening. Oh and whoever is invited to stay if they want. Annnnd some other stuff. : ) Sorry I'm so excited for this. Hopefully I don't fail as a hostess cause this is really the first time I'm hosting something other than my grad party. And my birthday sleepover in 9th grade. ...Yeah. But it'll be fun so you better be there!

Yeah. Up and down moods which I didn't really touch at all, but at the moment it's semi up so I don't want to bring it down thinking about it being down.

I miss home. Even though I was just there. I guess I just miss last year a lot. Everything's different now, some things I like, some things I'm still getting used to, and other things I just dislike entirely. Sometimes I still feel like I made the wrong choice going here. Sometimes I still feel like I made a lot of wrong choices. But I'm living with them and adjusting the best I can.

Sorry for that random spurt.

I can't wait to see you ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL (Ruairi included!) on Saturday!!! : D

And somehow this post became long even though I thought I had nothing to blog about... It happens every time.

Miss you!
Loveee you!

QUOTE:
"We have four years to be irresponsible. Relax; work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time hanging out with your friends. So stay out late, go out on a Tuesday night when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have and talk until the sunrise. The work never ends... But highschool does."
Highschool HAS.

BONUS!:
"Everything here is new... It's different. It's different from everything I've ever known in my life. But I'm starting over. My life is in my control. Coming here, I lost some parts of me. Some of them were good, some were bad. But the good and the bad always come together, don't they? So it will all be okay. This is my life; this is how I'm going to live it, starting over, I'm my own person."

So as you all can probably tell, I have been super busy lately. I mean I feel like a chicken running around with my head chopped off, but I am learning to breathe, so that’s always a good thing.

So the first week I didn’t blog was a bad week. I got my first C+ on a test ever, I got “interventions” from friends, and I had a tough time figuring out my schedule. Basically long story short, I ended up crying in the middle of public (like a real extreme cry) and it wasn’t good. That weekend I was going to stay at college, but after Friday night I knew I had to go home to buckle down on homework and regain my sanity. I think it was just because so much went on that week. I had lots of tests/projects/speeches plus I had initiation for sorority and I just didn’t have enough time in the day!

The next week I didn’t blog was pretty okay. Still lots of work, but I did enough fun things too. Not many tests or anything, but I was getting anxious because I wanted my grades to get better. I had lots of time in sorority stuff too. Then on the weekend I went home to see my lovely friends and my lovely boy in Hello Dolly. We went to Perkins (as most of you have written in your blog) and Panera on Saturday. Then Saturday night after my two week wait I saw my boy and all was good. We hung out together after the show, but he was extremely tired…so we kinda just fell asleep and woke up at 2 am (oops!!!). No one got in trouble, and I swear it was probs the most innocent we have EVER been. Haha. That Sunday I didn’t see him either, because he had to work, and I had homework.

This week things started really looking up. I had lots of work to do (and I still do!), but Thanksgiving is so close, I am just trying to make it haha.

So Monday was crazy. I was in class 11-4, went to print off notes at my room, went to a biology study group at 5, ate (for the first time in the day) dinner while at a sorority meeting (7-10) and then went back to my room and crashed. It doesn’t seem as budy when I write it out, but just believe me it was crazy!

Tuesday was a “trina needs to catch up homework day.” I did lots of homework in my friend Zac’s room, and then we ended up fighting. In my bad mood, I went to my bi lab, then was just crabby. After my lab we had a floor meeting with my dorm. It was about switching roommates next semester. My RA was like “raise your hand if you want to switch roommates next semester” and my roomie didn’t raise her hand. I did, because I am rooming with my friend Megan. My roomie tweaked and was about to cry because she figured she was going to room with me next semester. I felt like such a bitch, but we don’t even talk, and she had plans to move…but apparently they fell through. So I spent the rest of Tuesday kind of sad.

Wednesday at college was boring. After classes I had to stop at home because Thursday we had a sorority dance that I needed clothes for. So Wednesday night I went to applebee’s with my mom then hung out with the boy. We watched Nightmare before Christmas (and didn’t make out the entire time!!!) then after we…chilled. Haha. I watched glee at like 2 am and then went to bed (in my own comfy bed).

Thursday I had a hair cut appointment, so I got my hairsssss all cut and prettified for Thanksgiving. Then I went back to school and met up with my friends’ Cammy and Grace to get ready for the dance. We acted crazy and it was fun, and it reminded me how much I missed them this week since I had barely seen them! We went to get a transfer meal and I fell off a chair too. It was the hardest I have laughed in a long time. The dance was super lame and we had no fun, but after it I went with Kelly, Cammy, and Katie to applebees and we laughed some more. (Kelly and Katie were a little tipsy which made everything funnier). Then we went to the New Moon premiere at midnight. The theatre in Hudson is so less legit than Lakeville. It was a free for all and no lines whatsoever. It was madness, but since we were hyper, we made a game out of it haha. So I saw the movie, and I can say now that Edward is disgusting, and I believe Jacob Black is completely hot with his ripped bod. We got stuck in the parking lot for about an hour after the show (remember Hudson theatres=unlegit) and then I finally got back to the dorm to sleep a few hours before classes. It was a very fun day!

Friday everything started getting good. I got my Spanish test back (the same class I got the C+) and this time it was an A-. My roomie left for the weekend (yay room to self!) I finished all my classes, realized my weekend would only consist of homework, but somehow my friends convinced me at dinner to go to the hockey game. I was already dead tired from new moon, but I went anyway. I had fun and I don’t regret it, but at the same time it made me even more tired than I already was. We went back and chilled in Megan’s room, then I went to sleep.

So here I am now…blogging…finally. Sorry about the length, but a ton happened over the three weeks I didn’t write. Feel free to skim. Haha.

Hey girlies! This has to be short because my roomie is sleeping and the clicking keys bother her but I don't want to get in trouble with the blog police... ahem... LIZZIE.... ahem.

Ok so I didn't forget to blog I promise. I just haven't had a ton of time to write today.


This week was fairly uneventful. A lot of homework, art projects and not much sleep. 
 But other things that happened since last time I blogged. 


Friday- Erik picked me up to go home and see the musical and of course to see all of you lovely ladies. Hello Dolly was terrific much better than I thought and it was fun to go to Perky's because I'd missed that. 


Saturday- I went out to lunch with you guys and then worked on homework and hung around home. I ran to Cub and ran into Jazz...yeah can't miss the awkward encounters that always happen when I'm home. Then went to Hello Dolly again. 


Sunday- I went to Moa with my parents and it was all christmasy and cute and made me really happy and my mom bought me makeup at sephora. Then I went to sbux and b&n with my son :] 


Monday-Wednesday- Class and not much else. Kayla left Wednesday for Women's Chorale Tour in the cities so she's there until Friday night and I won't see her until Saturday sometime because she's going to a party Friday night and sleeping over so me and Mal and Jen(my RA) are going to a concert and then swing dancing and having a slumber party in my room, which I am very excited for!


Today- I made my hand turkeys (like I said earlier) and watched Grey's and had "Thanksgiving Dinner" from the Caf. It was pretty good actually. Everyone on my floor went to New Moon at midnight pretty much but like my friend group (which I am definitely missing the midnight premieres with you guys :[ ) ...and I already bought a ticket to go Saturday with Hannah so I was ok with that, but just like an hour ago Jen and Mal and some other girls decided to go to the 2:30 am showing...so they were hanging out in my room until now getting energized and we were just sitting around talking which was so nice since I never get to have people over when Kayla is here, she's always on the phone pretty much :/ but yeah Jen started talking about her older brother who is bipolar so we got talking about all of that stuff which hasn't been brought up really since I've been here but it was really comforting to just talk about this past summer and the things that have happened with Mik, and the realizations about myself. I had been too scared to talk about it at all since I didn't want to lose the friends i'd made here, or scare them, or have them judge me or something...but yeah, Jen just wanted to listen and kept asking me questions which was nice especially after having to pull myself from the edge of the cliff yesterday. I think it helped that I finally got a nap today which was much overdue and I watched the  princess bride to just relax. 


So overall I'm still feeling a little unstable but better than last night. I'm looking forward to tomorrow and Saturday and not so much Sunday-Tuesday because Charlie is coming and staying all day Sunday through Wednesday afternoon, luckily I get to go home Wednesday morning! And I am SO excited for Thanksgiving so that will definitely keep me going next week. I am so ready for a day off! Ahh and after thanksgiving only 2 weeks of classes then finals week! And I only have a math final and two art critiques which hopefully won't be terrible...But I need to sleep, I love you all and can't wait to see you all! 

So today is a day where I feel like not blogging. Today was poopy. I skipped my Paideia class. Last weekend was fun. Next weekend will be fun. Allison and I will be visiting Madison. A week from now I'll be home for Thanksgiving. And I'll see you guys. I'm sorry I've just been venting on Sam all night and I am so tired of talking about my feelings.

See you guys next week!

i need to stop eating so much. i lost 3 pounds apparently but that's not very good considering i gained weight. that's just frustrating. anyway.

so tuesday ended up better than it was going when i posted.. i asked some people if they wanted to go to lunch but everyone was kind of like "suuure.." and it seemed really awkward and weird.. so we went at like 11:15 and then i had classes and such.. and later they asked when i was going to dinner and showed up at my door an hour later with cupcakes! :] apparently they had been planning it for awhile and they were going to make them at noon which is why they were acting so weird. so that really made my day! it was so nice to realize i actually do have friends here who like.. care about me. at night i went out to eat at buca with my family which was really fun. they gave me some really nice things and brought a gorgeous cake and we ate way too much food. it was fantastic.

wednesday wasn't anything too exciting.. i went to this all souls type service for veterans day with my friend laura and had dinner after.. watched glee.. nothing too exciting.

thursday i was busy busy busy as my usual thursdays are. i went to target and dinner with some friends which was really fun.. spent wayy too much money but i had a gift card so i didn't feel as bad. i got a new wallet that is really cute and argyle and very me. and some food. i need to stop eating in my room so much though.. i'm such a snacker.

friday THE THIRTEENTH i had a pretty normal day.. my dad picked me up on his way from work to go home and then i went to the musical with lizzie and erik and heather and that was a good time. i love seeing them and all the high schoolers who miss us :]. we went to perkins after with trina too and that was a good time as well. saturday morning i slept in later than i meant to (which felt good) and then i went to lunch with you guys (minus roar.) obviously that was fun. i went to the musical AGAIN at night and it was fun again. this seems to be a theme.. (i did ____. it was fun.) but i don't have any other adjectives..

sunday i hung around, went to church, went to starbucks with bryton yayy and my daddy drove me back here. woot. i don't think anything exciting happened sunday night.

yesterday was pretty good for a monday.. i had classes and my advisor meeting so i've figured out what i'm taking next semester and stuff. for dinner, my floor went to the minneapolis campus which was fun but we took up like the whole bus. and i accidentally/on purpose skipped jazz singers because of it. yay!

and today i had dance club and that was pretty fun. i like it a lot and i'm starting to feel like one of the better girls in our group.. like a bunch of people had to leave so there were 4 of us left and we ran through it again and she said it looked a lot better.. like we were more together and stuff than with the whole group. so that made me feel good. i don't have to be the best, i just don't want to be the worst. but i already know that i'm not... which brings me to..

my roommate. she came back from the weekend and was like "happy birthday" and gave me an itunes gift card! it made me feel so bad for complaining about her and stuff.. she's so hard to explain. but i'm trying to be more patient with her and stuff. i think if i tell myself she isn't annoying, she seems less annoying. which makes sense. i just don't like it when she talks to herself.. which she's doing now..

sorry this is so long (as usual) but i love you girls! see you again soon! :]

I've posted 83 times. This is the 84.
Yuppp.

Um. You know how last week I did such an awesome job with writing stuff down? Yeah I didn't do that this time. I'll see what I can remember...

Thursday was my interview for IMPACT Board. I found out I'm really bad at nterviews if I don't pratice or prepare myself beforehand. I seriously bombed that. So anyway, I did not get any of the jobs I applied for within Board. I'm okay with that. Less work I have to do. Oh, but I am still in the running for a position that just opened up, I'll find out on Thursday if I got it. We'll see.

And then I went home this weekend and saw everyone but Ruar. And I had my interview at Macy's, which you all know I got. So I'll be home every weekend until break either training or working.
This weekend I saw "Hello, Dolly!"twice and surprised the company Friday night and all that fun stuff.
On Sunday I had another interview at Chuck'E'Cheese's and was also offered that job, but they both want me the same times and all so... that's not gonna work. I'm calling Chuck this week and telling them it's not going to work out but thanks and all that jazz.
I also went to my great grandpa's 90th birthday party. It was SO MUCH FUN. Only not at all. Oh well I got to take a tour of my mom's elementary school which is now the town historical museum. Small town redneck hicks. But chalk full of family and I love them. But oh so boring.

Let's see... tonight my roommate just left and I stole her nw Carrie Underwood CD and imported it on to my laptop. Shhh don't tell. ; )
Haha Free and easy way to get new music.

I really don't have much else to say about my days...

I've been really down today. I don't know if it's because I just got back here after a really fun weekend (I feel like I still belong more at home in Lakeville than here), or if the weather is starting to bring on my self-diagnosed Seasonal Affects. Or if it's something else. But I'm sure it's one of the two. Or both.
But I've been pretty down, like I said.
I think it's a movie night for me. Yes.

I miss you all, always! Even after seeing most of you just two days ago!
Love youu!!!

PS- Pretty sure this is my shortest post ever.

QUOTE:
"Life is truly a ride. We're all strapped in and no one can stop it. As you make your way from youth to adulthood to maturity, sometimes you put your arms up and scream. Sometimes you hang on to the bar in front of you. But the ride is the thing. I think the most you can hope for at the end of life is that your hair is messed up, you're out of breath, and you didn't throw up."

BONUS:
"When you look at a person, any person, remember that everyone has a story. Everyone has gone through something that has changed them."